Feb 03, 2005 20:49
My passenger side blinker fell out.
I think my axle might be bent too.
My computer crashed.
I had to restart from scrath.
I had to spend an assload of money gettin new shit to make it work again.
I lost my old files and stuff.
I had no internet for 3 days.
I bombed my audition.
I forgot my monologue.
I messed up my song.
I had to drive all the way around the world to get my music book, which i didnt even use.
It was in thew rong key.
I had the worst experiences at work.
Tax season sucks.
My whole school thinks Im gay apparently.
I havent got to talk to my friends in the longest time.
I think Courtneys in a bad mood.
Im running out of money.
Katie got a speeding ticket, and I feel responsible.
SSBTR is driving me absolutely insane.
I am being yelled at bye veryone.
G drives me nuts.
I cant do Mr. Pinnacle anymore unless I can find a new talent.
I have to quit fame to work at Bank One.
I might have to quit BoA (Good thing... but scary to do).
School sucks.
I am way behind in my work cause of all this shit ive been having to deal with.
My hip is absolutely killing me.
I havent been able to sleep much.
Winter dance is coming up, and once again im dateless. Unless...
Another valentines day is coming up (still alone, eh?)
I pretty much am gonna fail government.
This is maybe half of whats on my mind.
Pretty much the only thting that keeps me going is seeing my friends everyday. Today, me and Bria went out and sat outside at desert ridge with some coffee and just talked for the longest time. It was exactly what I needed to stop all this pressure on me. Idk tho... i found out some weird stuff about school/stugo that is throwing me off. Idont kno what to think anymore sometimes.
I just need to leave this place. Leave it all behind. I have my few connections that I dont want to lose, but I need to reset. Ive made a huge mess of my life, and I dont know what to do anymore.
I just need a day off to do nothing. To sit with my friends. To not think, to not worry. I need a good hug. I want to stand up on a mountain and scream at the top of my lungs. I want to get away from the mess Ive made. I dont want to be alone. I wish thigns were different.
Thank you to Bria and Courtney. You two are the closests things I have to not feeling alone