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last night was REALLY good...
i'm starting to get to that point that i always come to. although, it usually doesn't last this long. like ever. it's usually after a week - two at the longesttt. i get bored and move on. but i'm not bored, and i don't want to move on. i just have this feeling. i'm bad at keeping something for long periods of time.
like at work. i'm working on all kinds of projects because i'll get bored with one and move onto another. i can't stand working on the same project for more than 3 days. it's weird. i guess i'm not one for commitment.
...but that's what i want. =[
i'm also getting bored with school. i don't want it anymore. but like i think of myself, and i think of my future. and in order for my future to become possible, i MUST go to school. since i was like 9, i've seen myself as an engineer. no fun. i don't know why i'm not liking it anymore. maybe because it's getting complicated and time consuming. or maybe because i'm taking stupid classes and i feel like i'm wasting my time. i don't want to go to school anymore. atleast for now. let me get it out of my system and then i'll go back. i will though. because i can't see my life any other way.
i hate how i go through these emo phases. i guess when things get tough, i start feeling sorry for myself.
i have so much to do for school but all i want to do is spend time with bobby. i wonder if he gets annoyed or bored - or tired with/of me. i can't get enough of him. i'm like addicted or something. ugh. teh lame.
i have a cal 2 exam tomorrow. i neeeeeed to study for it, but i don't want to. it's the only class i like, and i don't even have the urge to do well in it. what's wrong with me? grr...
i went from nerd to turd. ahaha. i needed something to rhyme. i wish i could care again.
i've gotten used to not having my phone and i think i like it. i wonder what it would be like to not have one at all, ever. hmmm...
ok, nap time.
<3 monica
i'm starting to get to that point that i always come to. although, it usually doesn't last this long. like ever. it's usually after a week - two at the longesttt. i get bored and move on. but i'm not bored, and i don't want to move on. i just have this feeling. i'm bad at keeping something for long periods of time.
like at work. i'm working on all kinds of projects because i'll get bored with one and move onto another. i can't stand working on the same project for more than 3 days. it's weird. i guess i'm not one for commitment.
...but that's what i want. =[
i'm also getting bored with school. i don't want it anymore. but like i think of myself, and i think of my future. and in order for my future to become possible, i MUST go to school. since i was like 9, i've seen myself as an engineer. no fun. i don't know why i'm not liking it anymore. maybe because it's getting complicated and time consuming. or maybe because i'm taking stupid classes and i feel like i'm wasting my time. i don't want to go to school anymore. atleast for now. let me get it out of my system and then i'll go back. i will though. because i can't see my life any other way.
i hate how i go through these emo phases. i guess when things get tough, i start feeling sorry for myself.
i have so much to do for school but all i want to do is spend time with bobby. i wonder if he gets annoyed or bored - or tired with/of me. i can't get enough of him. i'm like addicted or something. ugh. teh lame.
i have a cal 2 exam tomorrow. i neeeeeed to study for it, but i don't want to. it's the only class i like, and i don't even have the urge to do well in it. what's wrong with me? grr...
i went from nerd to turd. ahaha. i needed something to rhyme. i wish i could care again.
i've gotten used to not having my phone and i think i like it. i wonder what it would be like to not have one at all, ever. hmmm...
ok, nap time.
<3 monica