God First and Foremost
I've been so blessed lately, so ecstatic. Yesterday I went to my friend's church that was a Missionary Baptist church. It brought back so many memories of the first pastor I had after I got saved. I could really feel the presence of God. Thank you Lord for a blessed service! The sermon was about the birth of sin in James. It was an interesting perspective into how sin operates.
Yesterday I watched Intolerable Cruelty and the In-laws. Watching those movies reminded me of how much I hate divorce and how essential it is to wait on God for his selected help-meet. I fell in love with the beauty of the wedding in the In-laws and started dreaming about how wonderful my wedding will be and how wonderful my husband will be because every God given gift is perfect. That's great to know. God doesn't give us bad gifts unless A. We some how ruin them or B. it was never from Him in the first place.
I thank God for giving me the strength to focus solely and primarily on Him. It seems as though the more hot guys I see, the more tempting it is to fall in love and be swept off my feet. A couple of weeks ago I got asked out by a hot guy who I said yes to then changed my mind after the fact, realizing that I'm not ready for a relationship, particularly because I have a hard enough time focusing on God without a guy. I want to get to a place in my faith and I want to be in a relationship that will only enhance my relationship, not hinder it. So I told him that and of course he was disappointed--I was disappointed too but at the same time relieved; I am almost at the point where I want God more than I want anything else. I just have to get to the point of totally surrender and loving God for just being God and not for the things He blesses me, or with the blessed moments, but just for being God! He is so awesome. I just hope that I will learn how to praise him in the hard times. Job says: "Shall we receive good at the hand of God, and shall not receive evil?" He doesn't of course mean God promotes evil but just that when things are going well versus things going bad. It's really hard for me to conjure up the strength in the difficult times. But God is still good and still faithful. Praise the Lord!
Yesterday I watched Intolerable Cruelty and the In-laws. Watching those movies reminded me of how much I hate divorce and how essential it is to wait on God for his selected help-meet. I fell in love with the beauty of the wedding in the In-laws and started dreaming about how wonderful my wedding will be and how wonderful my husband will be because every God given gift is perfect. That's great to know. God doesn't give us bad gifts unless A. We some how ruin them or B. it was never from Him in the first place.
I thank God for giving me the strength to focus solely and primarily on Him. It seems as though the more hot guys I see, the more tempting it is to fall in love and be swept off my feet. A couple of weeks ago I got asked out by a hot guy who I said yes to then changed my mind after the fact, realizing that I'm not ready for a relationship, particularly because I have a hard enough time focusing on God without a guy. I want to get to a place in my faith and I want to be in a relationship that will only enhance my relationship, not hinder it. So I told him that and of course he was disappointed--I was disappointed too but at the same time relieved; I am almost at the point where I want God more than I want anything else. I just have to get to the point of totally surrender and loving God for just being God and not for the things He blesses me, or with the blessed moments, but just for being God! He is so awesome. I just hope that I will learn how to praise him in the hard times. Job says: "Shall we receive good at the hand of God, and shall not receive evil?" He doesn't of course mean God promotes evil but just that when things are going well versus things going bad. It's really hard for me to conjure up the strength in the difficult times. But God is still good and still faithful. Praise the Lord!