Someone ought to give her a ticket to the player hater's ball
The gut reaction I usually get to any kind of confrontation is usually some kind of queasy feeling that leaves me just sort of paralyzed. I hate to admit it but at the end of day I'm usually pretty cowardly. And at the same time I keep hoping that through my meekness, I can show some compassion and love the same way she did.
There is only one person I have ever met that has loved me so unconditionally and wanted to believe in me no matter what. And what I have failed to understand is that doesn't happen all the time. I've spread my love around too easily. Sometimes it just feels like too much work to judge and condemn a person too harshly. It's a commitment.
More and more lately I've found I don't have time to reflect. I just have time for like/dislike. Tolerable/intolerable. Good/evil. It's not how I like to deal with things, but it sure does save alot of time.
My boyfriend may be blunt, crude, and a bit of crazy but he sure doesn't waste time. There has been so much he has given me without skipping a beat. We've had our share of fights and drama, misunderstandings, and personality clashes. Mark has changed my life. Mark has forced me many times to confront the paralyzing wuss part of me. But at the same time, I've worked so hard in the past few years to change. I've wanted it. I look at my old self and I don't just see that I was fat, but wasteful, whiny, weak, and without direction. I really want to make something real for myself. I am hard on myself but I have to be harder.
Ro, you never respected my wishes to lay off Mark. You never cared about how I felt or wanted to. That speaks volumes. I knew back when Mark and I got together, that you didn't understand nor even want to pretend to. But I didn't want things to change, I even hoped you guys would learn to get along again. I have never said anything as hurtful as what you posted behind my back. I guess that's what you thought about me this whole time. I don't know why you're so hateful, but at the end of the day it's not my problem. I have people that love me and I would rather spend time with
them.
Just so no one misunderstands me:
Ro Pirog People have to stop being so retarded, especially when large men or girls who're glad when those men stop bedding them under the cover of dark once they alter their appearances and bring them out to meet the folks, get butt-hurt.
Jen is just being a thin skinned idiot. Classy
So to summarize: I'm ruining my friendship with Ro because I'm just too senstive to the fact that she likes to tell people that I have no self worth and I'm with a man that only loves me for my looks. Also I should ignore the fact that every time I talk to her she likes to put the man I love down. Also the only reason she's kept him on her friends list on Facebook is to try to publicly humiliate him and call him a whore every chance she gets.
There is only one person I have ever met that has loved me so unconditionally and wanted to believe in me no matter what. And what I have failed to understand is that doesn't happen all the time. I've spread my love around too easily. Sometimes it just feels like too much work to judge and condemn a person too harshly. It's a commitment.
More and more lately I've found I don't have time to reflect. I just have time for like/dislike. Tolerable/intolerable. Good/evil. It's not how I like to deal with things, but it sure does save alot of time.
My boyfriend may be blunt, crude, and a bit of crazy but he sure doesn't waste time. There has been so much he has given me without skipping a beat. We've had our share of fights and drama, misunderstandings, and personality clashes. Mark has changed my life. Mark has forced me many times to confront the paralyzing wuss part of me. But at the same time, I've worked so hard in the past few years to change. I've wanted it. I look at my old self and I don't just see that I was fat, but wasteful, whiny, weak, and without direction. I really want to make something real for myself. I am hard on myself but I have to be harder.
Ro, you never respected my wishes to lay off Mark. You never cared about how I felt or wanted to. That speaks volumes. I knew back when Mark and I got together, that you didn't understand nor even want to pretend to. But I didn't want things to change, I even hoped you guys would learn to get along again. I have never said anything as hurtful as what you posted behind my back. I guess that's what you thought about me this whole time. I don't know why you're so hateful, but at the end of the day it's not my problem. I have people that love me and I would rather spend time with
them.
Just so no one misunderstands me:
Ro Pirog People have to stop being so retarded, especially when large men or girls who're glad when those men stop bedding them under the cover of dark once they alter their appearances and bring them out to meet the folks, get butt-hurt.
Jen is just being a thin skinned idiot. Classy
So to summarize: I'm ruining my friendship with Ro because I'm just too senstive to the fact that she likes to tell people that I have no self worth and I'm with a man that only loves me for my looks. Also I should ignore the fact that every time I talk to her she likes to put the man I love down. Also the only reason she's kept him on her friends list on Facebook is to try to publicly humiliate him and call him a whore every chance she gets.