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Sorry in advance for another kinda miserable post. Just need to get some stuff off my chest I guess.
I think we may have to say goodbye to Burrito some time soon, possibly in the next few days. As I mentioned before, she has a mammary tumour (inoperable due to her age; rats are so prone to them we'd take it off and probably find two more appearing in its place before long) and now it's starting to affect her.
I've been nursing her for some time now, trying to make sure she eats well and gets enough fluid, but now it's becoming an uphill battle. The tumour is big, she's getting so thin and she's finding it increasingly difficult to move about with it. I feel like we're getting to the point now where prolonging her life is just unfair and benefits nobody, least of all her.
The thing is as well, Jason and I are heading to Beaumaris (in Wales, about 91 miles away) for a couple of nights - and the reason I'm now contemplating helping Burrito cross is because I don't know if I could bring myself to go away while she's at home like this. I don't know what I would do if she passed away while I was gone. I know it probably sounds horrible and selfish, but I want her to go in my arms. It would be more comforting for me, and hopefully for her.
Rats, man. They break your heart. Their companionship brings me so much joy, but losing them without a doubt is the hardest part. For a creature so small, they have such big personalities and they leave a profound imprint on your soul.
I'm thinking tomorrow (as in Friday 21st) or the day after might be the day I book her final appointment. I'm gonna talk to Jason in a while about it but not right now as he's talking to friends online and it would just be awkward. Plus I need help with vet fees.
I dunno. The main thing I want to consider is Burrito's welfare. I just don't want her to suffer. I love her so much, she's truly special to me and she deserves a dignified and peaceful passing.
I think we may have to say goodbye to Burrito some time soon, possibly in the next few days. As I mentioned before, she has a mammary tumour (inoperable due to her age; rats are so prone to them we'd take it off and probably find two more appearing in its place before long) and now it's starting to affect her.
I've been nursing her for some time now, trying to make sure she eats well and gets enough fluid, but now it's becoming an uphill battle. The tumour is big, she's getting so thin and she's finding it increasingly difficult to move about with it. I feel like we're getting to the point now where prolonging her life is just unfair and benefits nobody, least of all her.
The thing is as well, Jason and I are heading to Beaumaris (in Wales, about 91 miles away) for a couple of nights - and the reason I'm now contemplating helping Burrito cross is because I don't know if I could bring myself to go away while she's at home like this. I don't know what I would do if she passed away while I was gone. I know it probably sounds horrible and selfish, but I want her to go in my arms. It would be more comforting for me, and hopefully for her.
Rats, man. They break your heart. Their companionship brings me so much joy, but losing them without a doubt is the hardest part. For a creature so small, they have such big personalities and they leave a profound imprint on your soul.
I'm thinking tomorrow (as in Friday 21st) or the day after might be the day I book her final appointment. I'm gonna talk to Jason in a while about it but not right now as he's talking to friends online and it would just be awkward. Plus I need help with vet fees.
I dunno. The main thing I want to consider is Burrito's welfare. I just don't want her to suffer. I love her so much, she's truly special to me and she deserves a dignified and peaceful passing.