WEDNESDAY 29TH AUGUST 2012
As I think about writing here, I'm finding it very difficult to explain the thoughts and feelings inside of me.
I feel like a stranger, to myself, and even though surrounded by a loving family,incredibly lonely.
I miss her.
The one person who means so much to me; more than anything.
My feelings of hope keep coming and going, like pain from a cut or stab deep within. I gain hope then it starts to heal, then faster than a blink of an eye, is ripped open again and the pain hits me so hard.
Time has no effect when things feel so unstable. The tears want to keep coming back, rising to the surface and make me give in to the sadness and pain which is tearing me apart.
When love takes a hold of you, it can bring you everything you ever wanted, or it can destroy you completely. There is a balance though, right in the middle. It does exist, I just fear I will never get to show the one I love about it.
Love is incredible. So powerful.
I hurt deep inside, damaged by love.
Lost hopes.
Lost dreams.
I feel weak.
Drained by my own mistakes and regrets.
I don't regret meeting you, and I don't regret loving you.