Dec 14, 2013 19:26
I'm sorry I cried. I didn't mean to. I'm a bit stressed out at the moment, though I know you have it much worse than me. That's why I feel bad. I really was trying to be there for you and be supportive but instead I upset myself and cried. It's one thing to be encouraging when you're stressed over comparatively little things like study but when it comes to bigger issues I'm lost for words. I don't want to sweep your feelings under the carpet and tell you unconditionally that you'll be fine, so I tell you that I believe in you and that if nothing else I'll always be your friend. Like I said, I don't have much to offer but I can be your friend. But even then I still cried when I shouldn't have.
I'm just so tired and worried about everything. My studies are not going to plan and I'm feeling insanely inadequate next to my peers. Study used to be the one thing I could do and I can't even do that right anymore. I'm just so tired and that's why I cried. I pulled myself together quickly, though. I never should have come apart in the first place. I know that there's nothing wrong with feelings and that we should all feel ok with expressing ourselves etc etc but I just don't like doing it. I used to be so much better at keeping my feelings to myself but even that is hard these days. I'm sorry. I'm fine. I'm just really really tired.
Stress doesn't last forever, though. Thing will get better for both of us...for everyone. We just have to keep trying our hardest and do our best. Even if our best is just getting out of bed. It's better than nothing. As long as you keep putting one foot in front of the other you will eventually get somewhere. It may not be the place you first wanted to go but it will be somewhere and it will be good. That's really all I have to say. I'm sorry and I'm tired and I'll try harder next time.
i'm an idiot,
life,
sorry,
stress