Thoughts on nothing much
Yesterday I went to meet some friends in the city. I was a little early so I ended up wandering around the state library admiring the art and the architecture. It's also warm and relatively quiet in there. I was very excited when I went up some stairs and found the science books. Rows upon rows of delicious knowledge and discovery all neatly bound and waiting for someone to come along and absorb the contents. At first i felt really excited by the sight but as I traversed hte aisles I became increasingly overwhelmed and suddenly quite anxious. They all looked so good and interesting but I'll never have time to read them all. It hit me suddenly just how many books I'll never get around to reading, how many ideas I'll never understand and the knowledge I'd love to acquire but never will simply because there is no time. Then I thought about how many new discoveries are being made and new ideas thought of every minute of every day and how hard it is for one to keep up with ones own field of interest/occupation, let along the countless other interesting fields out there. What about all the ideas and conclusions I'll never come to on my own simply because in the modern world there is no time left to simply sit and think or to have prope conversation with friends and bounce ideas off each other. I try this occasionally but it usually fizzes out because I'm not very good at expressing myself and others have trouble following my train of thought.
Anyway, I guess even if I had and extra 100 years added to my life I'd find only waste it. Is this what they mean about life getting in the way of living? I really like learning and discovering. Not just "my area" but all sorts of things. I like reading books and feeling the ideas slowly fall into place. I love that "ah ha!" moment of realisation when it clicks or the awe struck feeling of all the various concepts linking together like a large spiderweb in your mind. There's no time for that kind of slow simmering of ideas and discovery, though. You need to cram the relevant information into your brain oh and also you need to hold down a job and go on placement and go shopping and replace things that break oh and also you need to see your friends sometimes and you need to eat and sleep and maybe we shuld check facebook or tumblr again lololol lets watch that video of the cat for the nth time tonight.
Like I said, any extra time would just be wasted and this is why we are forced to pick and choose the things that matter to us and hope we're lucky enough to have the time to pursue them.
Anyway, I guess even if I had and extra 100 years added to my life I'd find only waste it. Is this what they mean about life getting in the way of living? I really like learning and discovering. Not just "my area" but all sorts of things. I like reading books and feeling the ideas slowly fall into place. I love that "ah ha!" moment of realisation when it clicks or the awe struck feeling of all the various concepts linking together like a large spiderweb in your mind. There's no time for that kind of slow simmering of ideas and discovery, though. You need to cram the relevant information into your brain oh and also you need to hold down a job and go on placement and go shopping and replace things that break oh and also you need to see your friends sometimes and you need to eat and sleep and maybe we shuld check facebook or tumblr again lololol lets watch that video of the cat for the nth time tonight.
Like I said, any extra time would just be wasted and this is why we are forced to pick and choose the things that matter to us and hope we're lucky enough to have the time to pursue them.