I Can't Let Go...

[chexy420]

Goddamnit. People still call me every day asking for shit and I don't know why I can't just tell them to stop calling. I have the number memorized... I spent the majority of my teen life wishing I could remember things, its ironic... if I could just selectively forget this shit that keeps sucking me in I'd be a lot better off. "He's at work, I'll

Comments

i get it.

[snowoffwhite]

So you've made a decision to change your entire life. what that means to me is that you truly want to do this. Now that you'v made the decision though, you're like.... "what do i do now?" You're completely out of ur comfort zone and that scares you. You're right, that was ur scene, and you did control it. People did what ever u wanted to do b/c they thought u were cool. the thing is, u are cool, but not for that reason. ur cool because you truly care about people, b/c ur fucking intelligent, and b/c you want to make urself better than you are right now. You have that motivation, even if you do have cravings to smoke n drink and stuff. The cravings dont mean youcant do this, they just mean that you are going to be a much stronger person when you're done. Someday you are going to be talking to someone who cant stop, and you are going to tell your story, and they are going to be a better person because they heard it. About ur friends??? I had the hardest time staying away from my friends who were just like me, all suicidal and depressed. So i turned my phone off. I turned it off for 2 weeks, only using it to call my rents and let them know wherei am. 2 weeks of seclusion will help. It will build ur determination and teach you how to depend on ur self instead of others. I love you chels, andi know you can do this.

Re: i get it.

[chexy420]

*heart*

:)