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sometimes i find it hard to believe that i'm capable of doing the things i do that hurt the people who i care for the most. WHY am i so fucking moody and cruel to some people?
all day long i've been feeling awful and incredibly guilty. i can't stop thinking about how stupid and unreasonable i can be sometimes. at least people are able to see my good side most of the time! i really hate that my bad side comes out when i'm around the ones i love.
i really need to stop sitting in my room frowning and feeling sorry for myself and get things done...like my laundry...
on a different topic, i'm finding it increasingly hard to make sense of religion the more i meet people on campus. today while at Buffalo Phil's with Kendall, Tiffany, and Betsy, this guy came up to talk to the girls. they all knew him and he seemed like a cool guy, but then when i made a little crack about Adam and Eve "having sex before marriage" he got really offended (i mean, i can kinda understand why he was offended, but it was a joke...i wasn't serious). then it was time to listen to him spout off his ideas about the Bible and the way he interpreted it. for some reason i got really bad vibes from what this guy was saying. it sounded to me as if he believed that women were somehow lower than men or inferior in some way...based on what he understood from the Bible. on the way back to Rose, Kendall mentioned that he was some "ROTC guy" and that just popped a bubble in my mind (whatever that means). i really don't like ANY of the ROTC people on campus. they seem brainwashed and emotionless to me. but yeah, as far as religion goes...i am once again lost at sea.
i know that last paragraph is going to offend/bother some people...and i know exactly who it will bother. i'm not saying i've become an atheist or agnostic or anything (not that there would be anything wrong with that if i did)...but i'm just finding it difficult to discuss religious issues with people who are taught to only believe one certain way and to only accept one point of view. maybe it's just my damn poor, liberal, "communist," federal-fund-teet-sucking, Bolivian family values that i get from my mother.
fuck you if you took that last sentence seriously.
all day long i've been feeling awful and incredibly guilty. i can't stop thinking about how stupid and unreasonable i can be sometimes. at least people are able to see my good side most of the time! i really hate that my bad side comes out when i'm around the ones i love.
i really need to stop sitting in my room frowning and feeling sorry for myself and get things done...like my laundry...
on a different topic, i'm finding it increasingly hard to make sense of religion the more i meet people on campus. today while at Buffalo Phil's with Kendall, Tiffany, and Betsy, this guy came up to talk to the girls. they all knew him and he seemed like a cool guy, but then when i made a little crack about Adam and Eve "having sex before marriage" he got really offended (i mean, i can kinda understand why he was offended, but it was a joke...i wasn't serious). then it was time to listen to him spout off his ideas about the Bible and the way he interpreted it. for some reason i got really bad vibes from what this guy was saying. it sounded to me as if he believed that women were somehow lower than men or inferior in some way...based on what he understood from the Bible. on the way back to Rose, Kendall mentioned that he was some "ROTC guy" and that just popped a bubble in my mind (whatever that means). i really don't like ANY of the ROTC people on campus. they seem brainwashed and emotionless to me. but yeah, as far as religion goes...i am once again lost at sea.
i know that last paragraph is going to offend/bother some people...and i know exactly who it will bother. i'm not saying i've become an atheist or agnostic or anything (not that there would be anything wrong with that if i did)...but i'm just finding it difficult to discuss religious issues with people who are taught to only believe one certain way and to only accept one point of view. maybe it's just my damn poor, liberal, "communist," federal-fund-teet-sucking, Bolivian family values that i get from my mother.
fuck you if you took that last sentence seriously.