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i am in a totally different space to what i am used to, i find myself staring into the unknown wanting to know more. why is that?. is it because nothing here makes me move anymore. arguments are not the same anymore, neither are the comfortable silence's. i could ask myself a thousand questions on the same subject and get nowhere, but instead i will just spill mindless drible to entertain myself. eating beacon of the floor turning toothtaste into wine . my distance has become apparent to myself. i can act normal and be freindly with friends but i dont really know if i want to be there with them, my mind wondars off to somewere completly parrallel getting me introuble for not contributing enough energy or time to one matter. images in my portfolio should stand for something liooking at them over and over again make me feel old, relpace them with something new and the old become remembered ''what happened to that image of the man walking the dog''. well i moved on u see. just becuase u have only seen them once or twice does not mean i havenot seen them thousands upon thousands of times. buy it if u want it that badly. the understanding between my dad and i become less and less all the time, as we come home from work we can not aggreee on anything, even something as simple as the amount of pasta i should cook. GET WHAT YOUR GIVIN I SAY. its easier just to aviod him in this house.have the day off tomorrow so im planing on waking up early so i can sleep outside, i hope its hot, or rainy i dont care. falling asleep in the rain will be fine. dont want to plan to much or it might never happen. i find that when u plan something it always falls through. planned to go away next week, turns out i have an interview for a course i want to do. no sunshine for me then ay. thinking about starting up sport again, yet i am no longer motivated to play at the level i did last year.might just take it easy and do my own thing, i always did want to do that. hunger becomes apparent . leave me now.