It's just... cognitive dissonance.
It's juggling being broken and jaded and being naive and letting my hopes run away with me. Not that my hopes have run away with me lately, but that's what happens. I try to be all jaded, I want to be all jaded, but I am inherently a naive optimist. And I try to bludgeon it.
So what is it? What's actually real? Or is it all real? I'm a jaded, broken, naive, optimist? It's just back and forth in my brain. I am trying to be one thing, but does that actually make me that thing? And I'm trying to deny the other thing, which means that I definitely am that thing.
I dunno.
So what is it? What's actually real? Or is it all real? I'm a jaded, broken, naive, optimist? It's just back and forth in my brain. I am trying to be one thing, but does that actually make me that thing? And I'm trying to deny the other thing, which means that I definitely am that thing.
I dunno.