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2 years ago i pointed out to my mother that she was in an inter-racial relationship and she said, "oh, yeaaaa. haha... wow, never thought about it like that". Which isnt to sa she never noticed, she has told me stories about how people reacted to her dating my father. I remember her tellig a story about how one of her friends made a comment along the lines of, "i can't believe you're with a greasy puerto rican". I think she just never thought about it from 3rd person perspective. Which is when i realized i hadnt either. I've always been proud of being puerto rican and have always been curious about my culture and ancestors. but i never thought about my experience as a product of a bi-racial marriage from a 3rd person perspective.
I have to admit its awkward when im filling out applications and they just have black, white, hispanic, native american, other ect. I ususally check other if it doesnt matter. When i had the baby i said i was white because i didnt want to become a part of the puerto ricans percentage of teenage mothers. but when i applied for college i said i was puerto rican, becaus ei wanted to become a part of the percentage of educated hispanics. weird, right?
I notice an oil and water effect when im in a room. Minorities stick together. there is a sense of culture and alliance. whereas, white peple havent been oppressed for their race so they dont feel the need to conjeal. instead they just sort of fit in with nobody and everyone at the same time. My sister was more frequently friends with the minorities. she got the curly black hair, darker skin, and black eyes. Whenever we went to puerto rico or mexico people spoke to her in spanish and me in english. Whereas, i get the awkward questions, "are.. are you milado?" ..."are you part spanish or something?". just about everytime i go to the grocery store i hispanic or black person gives me the same look, points there finger, leans back and says quickly "you spanish?". as soon as i say yes its like all guards are down. im in the club. except i dont speak spanish and they think thats lame. They would probably think it more lame that half the spanish i do know is from school and not from my family as it should be.
my point isnt that i mind either way or that im offended or anything along those lines. my point is theres an underlying world that ive always seen and never realized it. im a proverbial fly ont he wall. white people are treated completely different. If youre white and talking to a black person or a hispanic person heres a 50% chance theyre not talking to you like they would talk to a fellow black/hispanic. ive always seen this but it never clicked (atleast my family/friends and people in puerto rico were that way). at the same time... some other crap id liek to say and clear up but i cant finish becaus eim late to go to a family function.
maybe ill finish if i reread and this doesnt ake sense...
chelsea
I have to admit its awkward when im filling out applications and they just have black, white, hispanic, native american, other ect. I ususally check other if it doesnt matter. When i had the baby i said i was white because i didnt want to become a part of the puerto ricans percentage of teenage mothers. but when i applied for college i said i was puerto rican, becaus ei wanted to become a part of the percentage of educated hispanics. weird, right?
I notice an oil and water effect when im in a room. Minorities stick together. there is a sense of culture and alliance. whereas, white peple havent been oppressed for their race so they dont feel the need to conjeal. instead they just sort of fit in with nobody and everyone at the same time. My sister was more frequently friends with the minorities. she got the curly black hair, darker skin, and black eyes. Whenever we went to puerto rico or mexico people spoke to her in spanish and me in english. Whereas, i get the awkward questions, "are.. are you milado?" ..."are you part spanish or something?". just about everytime i go to the grocery store i hispanic or black person gives me the same look, points there finger, leans back and says quickly "you spanish?". as soon as i say yes its like all guards are down. im in the club. except i dont speak spanish and they think thats lame. They would probably think it more lame that half the spanish i do know is from school and not from my family as it should be.
my point isnt that i mind either way or that im offended or anything along those lines. my point is theres an underlying world that ive always seen and never realized it. im a proverbial fly ont he wall. white people are treated completely different. If youre white and talking to a black person or a hispanic person heres a 50% chance theyre not talking to you like they would talk to a fellow black/hispanic. ive always seen this but it never clicked (atleast my family/friends and people in puerto rico were that way). at the same time... some other crap id liek to say and clear up but i cant finish becaus eim late to go to a family function.
maybe ill finish if i reread and this doesnt ake sense...
chelsea