written a long as time ago, didnt apply to me for awhile...it does once again
Harsh words and violent blows
Hidden secrets nobody knows
Eyes are open, hands are fisted
Deep inside Im warped and Twisted
So many tricks and so many lies
Too many "whens" and too many "whys"
Nobody's special , nobodys gifted
Im just me, Warped and Twisted
Sleeping awake and choking on a dream
Listening loudly to a silent scream
Call my mind, the numbers listed
Lost in someone so warped and twisted
On my knees, alive but dead
Look at the invisible blood Ive bled
Im not gone, My mind has drifted
Dont expect much, Im warped and twisted
Burnt out, wasted, empty, and hollow
Todays just yesterdays tomorrow
The sun dried out, the ashes sifted
Im still here, Warped and Twisted
When I wrote this I was in a really bad place, in fact I think a week later was my first suicide attempt. And I remember when Joey got his hands on this, told me how good it was and then behind my back gave it to Mrs. Olsen and she proceeded to tell me and publish it, but she also had to make sure that I wasnt like that anymore, I remember being so relieved to tell her that I wasnt, but...I am again, and it sucks.
I talked to this guy online today, Carlos, and coincidently he is from San Jose, Seriously, what is it with those San Jose boys? I talked to him for the first time today and he gave me him number! Im like c'mon! Anyway, I dont know if Ill ever actually call him, but ... even still, Im holding out for Jess, however wrong that may prove to be.
Im on my period, so Im really...emotional (more so) now, and it fucking hurts! again. I cant even stand to have a tampon in at the moment, its just uncomfortable, and the cramps are killing me. And of course, Im missing Jess like crazy.
Hidden secrets nobody knows
Eyes are open, hands are fisted
Deep inside Im warped and Twisted
So many tricks and so many lies
Too many "whens" and too many "whys"
Nobody's special , nobodys gifted
Im just me, Warped and Twisted
Sleeping awake and choking on a dream
Listening loudly to a silent scream
Call my mind, the numbers listed
Lost in someone so warped and twisted
On my knees, alive but dead
Look at the invisible blood Ive bled
Im not gone, My mind has drifted
Dont expect much, Im warped and twisted
Burnt out, wasted, empty, and hollow
Todays just yesterdays tomorrow
The sun dried out, the ashes sifted
Im still here, Warped and Twisted
When I wrote this I was in a really bad place, in fact I think a week later was my first suicide attempt. And I remember when Joey got his hands on this, told me how good it was and then behind my back gave it to Mrs. Olsen and she proceeded to tell me and publish it, but she also had to make sure that I wasnt like that anymore, I remember being so relieved to tell her that I wasnt, but...I am again, and it sucks.
I talked to this guy online today, Carlos, and coincidently he is from San Jose, Seriously, what is it with those San Jose boys? I talked to him for the first time today and he gave me him number! Im like c'mon! Anyway, I dont know if Ill ever actually call him, but ... even still, Im holding out for Jess, however wrong that may prove to be.
Im on my period, so Im really...emotional (more so) now, and it fucking hurts! again. I cant even stand to have a tampon in at the moment, its just uncomfortable, and the cramps are killing me. And of course, Im missing Jess like crazy.