revelations
Ok. So it goes like this... Recently I've been doing so many things alone or on my own. Quite to my surprise, I actually quite enjoy spending time alone. Last time, I used to think I would never want to be seen outside alone because i would want to appear socially inept in anyway and I don't want to appear like a loner who doesn't have friends. Always so afraid that people who judge me harshly and look at me strangely even though i know honestly nobody really gives a damn. But during these solo outings I observed if people eat alone outside like in restaurants during lunch hours and that sight is really quite rare. And even if I do see someone eating alone in a crowded place, it is usually a man instead of a woman. I think women might be infinitely more in need of a partner to do something with them than men. And this need even boils down to small little things like a trip to the toilet. Ya ya, I do understand that human being are social beings after all especially if you read stuff written by Durkheim. How important it is for us to interact with some other social being and how essential solidarity is. Isolation is seen more like a dysfunction of society. But then again, I still very much prefer company than being alone cos being alone just sets my brain to think a lot more and probably about things that are less than pleasant. But i got to say I'm pretty proud of the fact that i could actually come to terms with being alone and i think it has to something to do with being older. Even my taste buds sort of change in some way. I actually like what old people like to eat like food with a herbal taste and such. Things that are bitter and less sweet.
By the way, I'm not even really old. I just turned 21. However, I really think my physical body is ageing. Sadly. The only thing I can think about my future is my old age. Not really bothered about whether I can find a partner and the need to age alone. Just really concerned if I have enough money to live a good life alone and what to do if I really do go off and what will happen to my funeral arrangements. I think when I think I'm about to leave the world, I'll make a playlist and hopefully the funeral allows music to be played.
I want to see the rest of the world and enjoy the subtleties of life. I want to sit by a beautiful beach on an little island somewhere in Japan and just watch the waves gently rolling onto the sand. I want to sit there drinking iced tea or listening to beautiful music. I want to taste the soul food of Japan and bask in moments of happiness when i eat something really good. Sit in little cafes that serve really good and tasty and healthy organic food in the prettiest of colours. Watch sakura petals fall onto the floor in the manner of a light drizzle and picnic on a nice patch of grass with very pretty looking bentos. I want to go to France and taste the food from three star Michelin restaurants and savour the culture that permeates the country and learn to speak some very fluent French and also eat in their more rustic restaurants. I want to go some Scandinavian country and enjoy the comparably much slow pace of life and walk along their streets with cute houses along the glistening waters of the sea. I want to go to the more rural parts of Vietnam and Thailand where the plants and grass are strikingly green and the people are so warm. I want to go Korea again to eat all the omg damn nice food and probably watch a little gig in some intimate venue and visit those nice farms they have. There is just so much that I want to see and do and all those need a lot a lot of money. So when I start working I'm gonna save and indulge in life now and then. I'll probably go retire in some Scandinavian country if I ever do have the money and the language ability. I hope I'll win toto or I have some far far away relative who actually wants to leave me with some really huge inheritance. WAHAHAHA. Plus plus. I really want to take the Darjeeling train in India. If you watch the Darjeeling Limited you'll know what I'm talking about.
Ok. I'm pretty free huh to type loads of rubbish about places that probably everyone wants to go and wants to see. Time to go bake muffins and start of my scrapbook project.
By the way, I'm not even really old. I just turned 21. However, I really think my physical body is ageing. Sadly. The only thing I can think about my future is my old age. Not really bothered about whether I can find a partner and the need to age alone. Just really concerned if I have enough money to live a good life alone and what to do if I really do go off and what will happen to my funeral arrangements. I think when I think I'm about to leave the world, I'll make a playlist and hopefully the funeral allows music to be played.
I want to see the rest of the world and enjoy the subtleties of life. I want to sit by a beautiful beach on an little island somewhere in Japan and just watch the waves gently rolling onto the sand. I want to sit there drinking iced tea or listening to beautiful music. I want to taste the soul food of Japan and bask in moments of happiness when i eat something really good. Sit in little cafes that serve really good and tasty and healthy organic food in the prettiest of colours. Watch sakura petals fall onto the floor in the manner of a light drizzle and picnic on a nice patch of grass with very pretty looking bentos. I want to go to France and taste the food from three star Michelin restaurants and savour the culture that permeates the country and learn to speak some very fluent French and also eat in their more rustic restaurants. I want to go some Scandinavian country and enjoy the comparably much slow pace of life and walk along their streets with cute houses along the glistening waters of the sea. I want to go to the more rural parts of Vietnam and Thailand where the plants and grass are strikingly green and the people are so warm. I want to go Korea again to eat all the omg damn nice food and probably watch a little gig in some intimate venue and visit those nice farms they have. There is just so much that I want to see and do and all those need a lot a lot of money. So when I start working I'm gonna save and indulge in life now and then. I'll probably go retire in some Scandinavian country if I ever do have the money and the language ability. I hope I'll win toto or I have some far far away relative who actually wants to leave me with some really huge inheritance. WAHAHAHA. Plus plus. I really want to take the Darjeeling train in India. If you watch the Darjeeling Limited you'll know what I'm talking about.
Ok. I'm pretty free huh to type loads of rubbish about places that probably everyone wants to go and wants to see. Time to go bake muffins and start of my scrapbook project.