food

[cherylkoh]

 OMG. I'm so fat I feel so uncomfortable when I feel as if my big fat tummy would squash my intestines inside. Or I'm gonna become so fat that I can't move anymore. I always wax lyrical about how fat I am but I totally do nothing about it. But instead, I went to google on potential buffet places and look at endless food porn. Daydream about what a magnificent chef I will be if I just devote the time and pick up the skills. Would be really happy to cook delicious food for myself and the people I love. :) Daydream about dumpling or popiah parties. Like you know. Literally free flow of really good food and times. :)

I think I might be some extreme idealist or what who only knows how to daydream and think of this alternate world where life is really good. Dreaming about meeting someone really intelligent like James Franco that would totally blow my mind off with their sheer intelligence. However, if I ever do meet someone that intelligent I think I would feel super inferior and be unable to say anything at all for fear or appearing like a stupid ass. I seriously need to get my ass to run like run till I become bones or something. I'm gonna threaten my own health if my weight continue to escalate. When I have the time. Must really read more. There is just so many books that I haven't read yet. My knowledge status bar is like running low. What the fuck do I know. Nothing. :(