Get up on this...
I...ATE...COFFEE...ICE...CREAM...TODAY...
I love you caffeine. I thank you for all your ups and downs. All our long nights and mornings together. And, of course all those pee trips. Really gets to me.
Ok, so with living three weeks WITHOUT caffeine, on top of all the other obivious, it was nice to have that treat. Have some news... It is a possibility that this program might be closing down because alot of reasons, which I really don't have the time to explain. Fact is, the counselor, who just resigned from the program, is calling my mom to inform her, tonite, of alot of the changes and, ridiculous actions that are going on at the house I live in.
But, I am not typing to bore you. Just an update. Dude, I kept down ice cream. For like, the first time in ages... And I enjoyed it. Then I went to my counselors house, and chilled out with some Ben Harper and some Modest Mouse... A good rest. But, I am back at the house I am being monitored at. We haven't had hot water for two days now. It snowed yesterday morning, and it was quite lovely indeed. But, still, I stink because I have not had a true shower... only those "loft bathes" that only Blake could honestly relate to.
TROY!!!!!!!!! I got your emails. I promise to love you. Babe, there is so much more to life than me worrying constantly about what I look like, and what the hell I eat. I am really seeing an improvement in myself. I woke up about 4:00 yesterday morning, and sat at the fireplace, smoked a cigarette and just prayed... I just sat there and talked and pleaded and begged for my eyes to be opened to who I really am. And, today, I looked at my belly in the mirror, and I smiled without any sort of control. I am happy today... Even though there is tons of bullshit going on up here. I feel so good about myself. OH!! and my stomach growled for the first time in SUCH a long time. I ate applesauce and raisins until I could bust. And I didn't feel bad about it. I wish you could be with me today, I would love to share this excitement with you doll.
I promise to love you without end babe.
Ok, I have to go and prep supper... FUN FUN. Oh, I bought the coolestness jacket thing from Goodwill today. And man, these Goodwill's up here are the SHIT. They have like, classy lighting, sliding doors (electronic), and they color coordinate EVERYTHING!.
Ok, I really will go now, and I might get to talk again tonite.
Thanks for the replys... to those who actually read some words in my entries. It really means alot. But Manny, I have to admit, I never make it to your hair updates. I promise, I will have a make-up day, just for that.
Love you Troy.
To all, I have never felt so strongly about friends, until I met you. I swear, I have some of the greatest friends in the entire world. Just, a mixture of beauty and talent and creativity... and, yes, I do mooch off of you. But, you have plenty more to go around. Keep warm.
I love you caffeine. I thank you for all your ups and downs. All our long nights and mornings together. And, of course all those pee trips. Really gets to me.
Ok, so with living three weeks WITHOUT caffeine, on top of all the other obivious, it was nice to have that treat. Have some news... It is a possibility that this program might be closing down because alot of reasons, which I really don't have the time to explain. Fact is, the counselor, who just resigned from the program, is calling my mom to inform her, tonite, of alot of the changes and, ridiculous actions that are going on at the house I live in.
But, I am not typing to bore you. Just an update. Dude, I kept down ice cream. For like, the first time in ages... And I enjoyed it. Then I went to my counselors house, and chilled out with some Ben Harper and some Modest Mouse... A good rest. But, I am back at the house I am being monitored at. We haven't had hot water for two days now. It snowed yesterday morning, and it was quite lovely indeed. But, still, I stink because I have not had a true shower... only those "loft bathes" that only Blake could honestly relate to.
TROY!!!!!!!!! I got your emails. I promise to love you. Babe, there is so much more to life than me worrying constantly about what I look like, and what the hell I eat. I am really seeing an improvement in myself. I woke up about 4:00 yesterday morning, and sat at the fireplace, smoked a cigarette and just prayed... I just sat there and talked and pleaded and begged for my eyes to be opened to who I really am. And, today, I looked at my belly in the mirror, and I smiled without any sort of control. I am happy today... Even though there is tons of bullshit going on up here. I feel so good about myself. OH!! and my stomach growled for the first time in SUCH a long time. I ate applesauce and raisins until I could bust. And I didn't feel bad about it. I wish you could be with me today, I would love to share this excitement with you doll.
I promise to love you without end babe.
Ok, I have to go and prep supper... FUN FUN. Oh, I bought the coolestness jacket thing from Goodwill today. And man, these Goodwill's up here are the SHIT. They have like, classy lighting, sliding doors (electronic), and they color coordinate EVERYTHING!.
Ok, I really will go now, and I might get to talk again tonite.
Thanks for the replys... to those who actually read some words in my entries. It really means alot. But Manny, I have to admit, I never make it to your hair updates. I promise, I will have a make-up day, just for that.
Love you Troy.
To all, I have never felt so strongly about friends, until I met you. I swear, I have some of the greatest friends in the entire world. Just, a mixture of beauty and talent and creativity... and, yes, I do mooch off of you. But, you have plenty more to go around. Keep warm.