Looking back at the days past or having hope for tomorrow; which one is scarier?
Reading this topic from the AmeWota message boards made me realize that I'm not a very motivated blogger. I tend to get random bursts of inspiration and just post spontaneously. I originally called my blog that, a long time ago when I was still a crazy FMA fangirl and before I started post regularly on it, because I thought it sounded cool. I registered not only for LJ, but for many other service with the name 'hanachan01' just so no one took the name. Just because I could.
Now, the name seems to hold a meaning. Not some deep meaning, or anything, I don't want to sound pretentious, but there actually is a spontaneity to my blog now. My fandoms have truly nothing to do with each other- mot of my Jpop friends don't want to read about my love of Keith Olbermann, and most of my pundit friends don't care about the latest Morning Musume release. Some of my anime/manga friends care about Jpop, but many don't care for that or punditry. I don't blame them- it's not their fandom. But the fact that I blog about many things that appeal to only certain groups of people is why my blog lives up to its name.
Another name I chose for myself was Hanachan. Obviously, this isn't my real name (I'd rather not disclose that here-I'm a really private person), but it's more than just a spontaneous nickname. It came from a songs off of Ayumi Hamasaki's "A Song for Xx" album entitled Hana. The lyrics were about a young girl who didn't know what to do with her life or where to go. At the time I created the name about three years ago, I felt just like that. It was a hard time in my life, and I felt exactly like how Ayu was writing in her song. I was very into Ayu's music at that time, as I connected to the lyrics she would sing about loss and pain. I chose the name as it felt fitting. I added '-chan' because I was a crazy fangirl back then and thought it was cute or something...I guess it still is. The '01' is because the first account I tried to sign up for (whatever it was) wouldn't allow me to be Hanachan because that name was already taken. So I simply added the '01'.
Now, I feel the name still fits me. The song is about a girl who can't find her way. I accept that I am like that sometimes, but I've been able to turn it into something better. I try to go with the flow and take opportunities. However, I have much more control over my life now. I know where my destination is, but I don't know how I will get there- and I like it that way. To me, my name represents that I have grown up.
Now, going back to my original topic...
I wish I was more motivated to blog. I've had a few ideas in my mind currently, and I've been getting into some new things recently. But every time I still down to blog, I get distracted. I sometimes do this when reading fic- even ones I really like! I've always found this an odd quality about myself. It has a tendency to hold back on parts on my life, but sometimes I get great ideas when I just star into space distracted. I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing!
Anyways, I know this blog entry is long and rambly and doesn't have much fandom in it, but I needed to get this out. Thank you!
Now, the name seems to hold a meaning. Not some deep meaning, or anything, I don't want to sound pretentious, but there actually is a spontaneity to my blog now. My fandoms have truly nothing to do with each other- mot of my Jpop friends don't want to read about my love of Keith Olbermann, and most of my pundit friends don't care about the latest Morning Musume release. Some of my anime/manga friends care about Jpop, but many don't care for that or punditry. I don't blame them- it's not their fandom. But the fact that I blog about many things that appeal to only certain groups of people is why my blog lives up to its name.
Another name I chose for myself was Hanachan. Obviously, this isn't my real name (I'd rather not disclose that here-I'm a really private person), but it's more than just a spontaneous nickname. It came from a songs off of Ayumi Hamasaki's "A Song for Xx" album entitled Hana. The lyrics were about a young girl who didn't know what to do with her life or where to go. At the time I created the name about three years ago, I felt just like that. It was a hard time in my life, and I felt exactly like how Ayu was writing in her song. I was very into Ayu's music at that time, as I connected to the lyrics she would sing about loss and pain. I chose the name as it felt fitting. I added '-chan' because I was a crazy fangirl back then and thought it was cute or something...I guess it still is. The '01' is because the first account I tried to sign up for (whatever it was) wouldn't allow me to be Hanachan because that name was already taken. So I simply added the '01'.
Now, I feel the name still fits me. The song is about a girl who can't find her way. I accept that I am like that sometimes, but I've been able to turn it into something better. I try to go with the flow and take opportunities. However, I have much more control over my life now. I know where my destination is, but I don't know how I will get there- and I like it that way. To me, my name represents that I have grown up.
Now, going back to my original topic...
I wish I was more motivated to blog. I've had a few ideas in my mind currently, and I've been getting into some new things recently. But every time I still down to blog, I get distracted. I sometimes do this when reading fic- even ones I really like! I've always found this an odd quality about myself. It has a tendency to hold back on parts on my life, but sometimes I get great ideas when I just star into space distracted. I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing!
Anyways, I know this blog entry is long and rambly and doesn't have much fandom in it, but I needed to get this out. Thank you!