I've got a new laptop!
So after all the drama that occurred with my laptop, it all got resolved on Christmas when my dad passed me my present. The moment I saw the size and weight, I knew what he had given me and I was suddenly struck with guilt.
When I complained about my lack of a laptop, I really didn't mean it in any way that I wanted someone else to buy me a new one. I was ready to accept the fact that this is a part of life, that this is my responsibility that I will bear head on, even if it did come with a vat full of rants from me. Like the fact that I now have a car and a car loan to pay, together with all the payments I have to make for its service and such, I'll ALWAYS rant about it whenever I get the chance. But I'm not going to be happy if someone pays it for me, cause I've accepted it as my responsibility.
So without even opening my present, I didn't feel that happy at first. I was just too guilty thinking if I ranted too much about my lack of a laptop... but looking back, I really didn't. The only reason why he knew was because my mom usually borrowed my laptop to call her family in the Philippines and when she couldn't do it recently, I had to explain to the both of them that my laptop was dead, with a high chance of needing to be replaced. And I think my dad took advantage of that moment to decide what to get me for Christmas.
This year my dad went all out to buy me, my mom and my sister fancy presents. With mine being a laptop, my dad bought my sister an iPhone 4 and my mom an iPad. I don't even know how to use those things and am now learning to teach my mom how to use it to check her email, facebook and to chat with her family. They're all fancy and incredibly fancy presents that my relatives were incredibly envious of us. Some even snatching the laptop away from me constantly to bully me... (ah, family...)
I knew why my dad did this. After the amount of pain he brought unto this family early this year, I knew he was all out on compensating it with fancy gifts. I'm not fond of it... I don't need to be spoilt. I may not have liked my old laptop, but it functioned well enough for me.
And despite these thoughts, I still accepted this new laptop and I love it. Immensely. Windows 7 (I used Vista before this), everything I needed already installed from Microsoft Word to Movie Maker, the exterior is red and black colour... for the first time, I wanted to give an object a name because it was everything I could ever ask for (wanna call this Devil Bat, just cause it's red and black) and it felt completely mine.
It's a weird feeling. But overall, I was happy this Christmas. The past two Christmases have been awful for me.
This year, despite my guilt, a part of me is glad to finally have one good Christmas, and that I should be really grateful for what I still have, from material objects like a laptop and car, to the fact that my family is together.
There's a lot to be grateful about.
Merry Christmas to you all!! Happy holidays to those who don't celebrate and may you all have a wonderful week ahead as we get ready for a new year!
When I complained about my lack of a laptop, I really didn't mean it in any way that I wanted someone else to buy me a new one. I was ready to accept the fact that this is a part of life, that this is my responsibility that I will bear head on, even if it did come with a vat full of rants from me. Like the fact that I now have a car and a car loan to pay, together with all the payments I have to make for its service and such, I'll ALWAYS rant about it whenever I get the chance. But I'm not going to be happy if someone pays it for me, cause I've accepted it as my responsibility.
So without even opening my present, I didn't feel that happy at first. I was just too guilty thinking if I ranted too much about my lack of a laptop... but looking back, I really didn't. The only reason why he knew was because my mom usually borrowed my laptop to call her family in the Philippines and when she couldn't do it recently, I had to explain to the both of them that my laptop was dead, with a high chance of needing to be replaced. And I think my dad took advantage of that moment to decide what to get me for Christmas.
This year my dad went all out to buy me, my mom and my sister fancy presents. With mine being a laptop, my dad bought my sister an iPhone 4 and my mom an iPad. I don't even know how to use those things and am now learning to teach my mom how to use it to check her email, facebook and to chat with her family. They're all fancy and incredibly fancy presents that my relatives were incredibly envious of us. Some even snatching the laptop away from me constantly to bully me... (ah, family...)
I knew why my dad did this. After the amount of pain he brought unto this family early this year, I knew he was all out on compensating it with fancy gifts. I'm not fond of it... I don't need to be spoilt. I may not have liked my old laptop, but it functioned well enough for me.
And despite these thoughts, I still accepted this new laptop and I love it. Immensely. Windows 7 (I used Vista before this), everything I needed already installed from Microsoft Word to Movie Maker, the exterior is red and black colour... for the first time, I wanted to give an object a name because it was everything I could ever ask for (wanna call this Devil Bat, just cause it's red and black) and it felt completely mine.
It's a weird feeling. But overall, I was happy this Christmas. The past two Christmases have been awful for me.
This year, despite my guilt, a part of me is glad to finally have one good Christmas, and that I should be really grateful for what I still have, from material objects like a laptop and car, to the fact that my family is together.
There's a lot to be grateful about.
Merry Christmas to you all!! Happy holidays to those who don't celebrate and may you all have a wonderful week ahead as we get ready for a new year!