Unanswered Prayers

[cherry_grrl]

Well I had the baby on Sept 21 at 9:37pm by a cesearn section. 4 weeks early. She is a beautiful baby girl. We named her Mallory Marles Neylon. She weighed 5 lbs 6 oz and was 19 1/4 in. I'd love to say that she is completley healthy, but she isn't. There is something wrong with her that is causing her to not be able to hold down her food. It's not life threatening, but she is at Rush hospital and she can't come home until they figure out what the problem is and they fix it. It breaks my heart to see her there with all the Iv's and feeding tube . It just seems like God hates me. How could he do this to me? I love her so uch and would give anything for it to be me instead of her. All I wanna do is take her home and I can't. I don't understand why things like this happen. She's so beautiful and she doesn't deserve this. I pray every night that she will get better. When I hold her in my arms I feel something incredible. I love her more than she will ever know. It breaks mine and her father's heart. This isn't how things were supposed to work out. I know that she will be ok I just need to be strong for her. We go up there everyday and I will continue to be there for her for the rest of her life. She gave me a reason to change my life and I did. When she comes home she will see that life is a beautiful thing. She has so many people that love her and so much to look forward too. I just pray that God is with her and that he will help her through this. Well I'm off to the hospital.
Lord watch over my precious baby girl,
Keep her safe and help her through this,
\ Give her strength and courage,
Bring her home safely and let her know that we love her.