Reaction to Sho's rumor (recycled rumor perhaps?)

[cherry_akira]

So I'm pretty sure everyone has having/had a wonderful weekend, whether you celebrated Thanksgiving or not. I have had pretty good holiday and top it all off that I woke up this morning with some rumor news that I have been waiting for awhile now! =D. Rumors floating around again about Sakurai Sho and Mori Izumi were out on a date based on an anon

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[cherry_akira]

I get that you were depressed, and like I mentioned in the post, I have been in that position where I was depressed about with Sho's other dating rumors...but now I just have a different perspective since that has had been some years already when I reacted to my first Sho rumor. Like I said I was surprised that after first hearing this rumor, I expected me to go into another whirlwind of sorrow...but I didn't...I actually turned out to be happy for him.

However I do not agree with your opinion of your idea of a "serious fan". I am a serious fan of Sho and I have confessed I love him very much...but being in love toward the man (can't say "with" because that would indication some kind of mutual feelings, which I know is entirely irrelevant in this case) means I love him to the point where sometimes letting go shows how much you mean to them. I cannot fight for Sho because I don't know him personally and it doesn't suit right for me to attach myself to him when I know me and him are not destined for each other. In another perspective, could I honestly say that I can make Sho's life happy? Again I can't because I don't know anything about the guy other than what he put out for the public (scripted/unscripted) or what the media gives to fans. With that wistful hope of wishing I could say "Yes" with complete confidence like I know the man, I would say "I'll try" or even hesitate and say "I don't know" because again I would need to be mutually in love with Sho and I have to know him inside and out. The reason is because I want the best for him...as he would for me if we were to trade places by an alternative universe sort of way.

But on the lighter note other than me lecturing my way, again I understand that dull ache that you are experiencing because I felt that before with a Sho rumor. But really us fangirls gotta keep our chins up...none of Arashi wants to see us sad even when they move on to fulfilling their other dreams (marriage-wise). We will deal with Sho's "forever" when the time comes...if you want, I can hold your hand *virtually* as a friend to help you get through this because if there is one thing Arashi has given us other than happiness is friendship with other fans <3

[arasukishi]

Forgive me if I may have offended you. I don't think I'm capable of explaining myself properly. ::D It's just that I think all fans have their versions of attachment to the members, and I think all those versions of attachment - whether it's the type the leads people to sub videos, or the type that simply makes them smile at the thought of their ichiban - are the very definition of what being a fan is. So... I think I'm trying to say... one's personal definition of attachment is what makes one a serious fan. Some people get depressed, some don't. If one doesn't have an opinion about issues like this, either like or dislike, then one isn't a 'serious' fan. For me. ::P I think, that's how I see it. Hahaha.

I guess one reason I'm very depressed about all this drama is that I only came across Arashi a year ago. A huge, huge part of me wants to preserve my image of Arashi - one everyone can share - for at least a few more years. It's just selfishness and immaturity on my part. ::P But I'm lucky because the senpai in the fandom have been very kind. I've been very vocal about being depressed because I've realized I'm too attached to Sho, and a lot of wonderful people have held me *virtually* and told me that we'll be all right. That although we're all affected by the issue, it is an inevitability we all must prepare for. That really made me happy - I've met so many wonderful new friends.

Thank you so much for letting me hear your thoughts! I hope I haven't bothered you so much by sharing mine. ::)

[cherry_akira]

I see where you are coming from on the definition of the fan, but even if it is dislike, I find some reactions from fans going a little too far and not to mention doing emotional harm on themselves by being really depressed on something that is meant to happen...like it's okay to be sad but the indication of someone being "depressed" is kinda heavy because of the true meaning of the word.

Ah~ that's the reason behind the depression...that you haven't had the chance to know them that long and for them to go away slowly unexpectedly is pretty tough. For me I kinda envy those who have been in the fandom since the beginning in comparison to my four years...so I am somewhat on the same boat as you...but yeah even when the time comes, we still have those amazing memories and moments we share with Arashi in some way...let's not forget the members will think of their fans as well for the rest of their lives and be grateful that we were one of the people to make them shine =D

[arasukishi]

Perhaps you're right. I shouldn't be using the word depression too lightly. It's a bit more than sadness though. I can't find the right word for it... melancholy?

And yeah, I really am grateful to Arashi. My perspectives have changed because of them and their fandom. ::)

[cherry_akira]

possibly melancholy...but as you kinda implied you have a jumble of emotions going on but yeah you'll get through this *pats back*

haha I learn too much from them in variety shows than I can from so many places...they can at least say they have no big regrets in the lifestyle they have lived up to (I hope) because they have done so many things all of us would have crossed out by now in our bucket list =P

[arasukishi]

Yeah, I'll get through this someday ::) Gambarimasu!!!