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i decided since brendan is the one person i told EVERYTHING to, and always went to when i had news, or needed help, my journals are going to now be written to him. i know he cant read them, prob never will, but itll make things easier for me. so when you see a 'dear brendan,'just my way of getting things out. and when i talk about things we did, of course it is all past tense, just me reminscing.
dear brendan,
im sitting here bored out of my mind listening to blink-182 and eating a tv dinner. ive been eating crappy meals everyday because no one is here from the morning till after dark, ive been having to make my own crappy meals. i wish we could go to lunch at la madelline's together. remember when we did that, and i passed out. then i was super pale and sweating, gosh even though i felt sooo horrible, that was a good day. i wish you were still with me when i fell asleep. i would rather fall asleep on you than on my stupid pillow. christian moved, it sucks. first i lose you, then christian. you two were my boys. now i cant hear christian tell me how 'tasty' you look, and i dont have any gay guys to be around. i hope your doing well. i hope you like the place your living at... any hott girls? i remember you said only 4 americans were there.. so i assume the girls you got have pretty accents. thats hot. your in my prayers and my thoughts, every day. i love you.
dear brendan,
im sitting here bored out of my mind listening to blink-182 and eating a tv dinner. ive been eating crappy meals everyday because no one is here from the morning till after dark, ive been having to make my own crappy meals. i wish we could go to lunch at la madelline's together. remember when we did that, and i passed out. then i was super pale and sweating, gosh even though i felt sooo horrible, that was a good day. i wish you were still with me when i fell asleep. i would rather fall asleep on you than on my stupid pillow. christian moved, it sucks. first i lose you, then christian. you two were my boys. now i cant hear christian tell me how 'tasty' you look, and i dont have any gay guys to be around. i hope your doing well. i hope you like the place your living at... any hott girls? i remember you said only 4 americans were there.. so i assume the girls you got have pretty accents. thats hot. your in my prayers and my thoughts, every day. i love you.