i should be at that fucking show. i can kill someone rightnow
Last cigarette:june 14 2003
Last good cry: around the same time
Last library book checked out: i'm like banned cause i owe so much shit. Library criminal i be.
Last movie seen: dancer in the dark..which i redownloaded. Oh goodness
Last book read: re-read 'Catcher n the Rye'
Last cuss word uttered: "sweetjesuscockandvirgincunt"
Last beverage: ORANGINA wooo!
Last food consumed: bruschetta and some linguine al pesto
Last crush: is rampant <3
Last phone call: this guy who hasn't left me alone for a little over 2 years now.
Last tv show watched: nigga, fox is playing willy wonka and the chocolate factory
Last time showered: like 2 hours ago
Last shoes worn: i'm wearing my hi-tops right now
Last cd played: a boysetsfire demo
Last item bought: a bus transfer
Last downloaded: Common sense
Last annoyance: summer school
Last disappointment: not going to movienite.
Last soda drank: 1 month ago.
Last thing written:
My best role was playing shattered,
slow and thinking that i actually mattered
lines thrown about that made me think i actually comforted you
and it's too fucking bad that i'm only movie script beautiful.
Just to calm the thought of knowing no one wants this.
The previewed loop was set again to reel
Showed me in a chokehold and breathless
In the splendor of drowing in absence
Thats me,i'm gone.
Thats me, and this lense speaks...for every time i've failed and rose again to be somekind of something
it's so wrong
it's so wrong
so fucking wrong, and the last time i give myself to films
Don't dine me, just view me as the portrait that lost it's limelight.
i can't swallow the idea that the past was for refining. It's criminal how a thought encased in glamour is concealed.
it's filth, and it's not the kind of broadway i plan to stride on.
with the vaseline in my teeth and the barrel nudged behind my back.
it's the catwalk i chose to fade away from, i don't belong.
And it's not me being cruel.
It's not being dishonest or selfish at that
it's just what i strayed from and my role gone sour.
Thats me,i'm gone.
Thats me, and this lense speaks...for every time i've failed and rose again to be somekind of something
it's so wrong
it's so wrong
so fucking wrong, and the last time i give myself to films.
offstage, and about.
rampant in the things i wished for.
kinda.
with one less fan, one less bind, one less layer and that blindfold on my eyes.
but the same streak trying to break me in your movie critic way.
isn't that a lovely picture?
good film.
and it's so very you to take along the movie crew.
how gracefull and good riddance go be another fan,
miserable enough to sing the same stale laments from the lowest tower.
Last key used: "."
Last word spoken: "grace"
Last sleep: i fell asleep in the car after i got shot number 4
Last im: STEVEN CANDY PANTS WOOO!
Last sexual fantasy:that time i saw that bone crusher video..oh i aint never scurred for his fatass..lol, j/k i dunno
Last weird encounter:i thought i saw an ex today at a scene of a car accident by 107th avenue and my mom was like "LET'S GIVE HIM A RIIIDE! LOOK HOW CUTE..hey Romi why don't you..."
"-NO MOM!"
Last ice cream eaten: a while ago
Last time amused: filling the gas tank today the floor was covered with some slippery stuff and i almost busted my ass but managed to keep my balance with the noozle in one hand and my sweater in another, and my hair was in my face.
Last time hugged: yesterday
Last time scolded: woo, it's nothing new to me but i guess a little while ago my mom bitched about my hair and hated it so much she didn't let me go out... and i missed the fucking show when she actually made me believe i had a chance of going out tonight
Last time resentful: towards what? stupidity?
Last chair sat in: this cool orange chair
Last lipstick used: i put on this whore red just for fun this afternoon, but i dare not go out with it. Not now atleast, maybe when i feel crazy
Last underwear worn: these. They're the only pair of white i own and wear cause they look pretty cool.
Last bra worn: blue one, or is it black i dunno i'm too lazy to take my shirt off
Last shirt worn: "DOWNTOWN YMCA JUDO TEAM SAN ANTONIO, TEXAS" hoooha!
Last time dancing:i tell you hot hot heat makes ANYONE dance, it's he perfect "get off your ass and get ready to go out get dressed bitch" music
Last poster looked at: this amazing b/w bjork one i want and would do ANYTHING for.
1 MINUTE AGO: did the pee-pee dance and went to the bathroom
1 HOUR AGO: got a haircut
1 DAY AGO: was recording myself doing covers
1 WEEK AGO: started the shitastic summerschool nightmare
1 YEAR AGO: I was an asshole with uncomfortable shoes.
I HURT: my deltoida muscles, both of them with these stupid needles and the 4 more appointments to come
I HATE: those kids you see at doctors offices crying more than they should just to get the whole 30 seconds of vommited compassion...and all fuss with the people dwelling among the same stupid criteria with the faintest idea of empathy
I LOVE: music
I FEAR: the thought of falling and floor not being hard enough to kill me instantly or snap me out of the pain that comes wit adoring and losing
I HOPE: i get to go out and all those in need of whatever they get it. Get me?
I HIDE: my labret and nose ring..and my gauges often just to avoid shit.
I DRIVE: people crazy?
I MISS: too many things, too many feelings, too many times and the constance of caring.
I LEARNED: to look at everything in all perpectives and try not to overlook a few words.
I NEED: too many things, 95% of them not being material
I WANT: to be freeeeee. just like that whale
I THINK: too much
Current clothes: black pant,judo shirt,sauconys'
Current mood: alot plus the wishing for you to peel a few off my back
Current music: 'my unbroken reflection'-This Day Foward
Current taste: the taste of open,soft skin.
Current hair: I CUT IT TODAY! it kinda has the whole zelda cut feelgoing to it. Carlos is the coolest hairdresser that is not gay.
Current annoyance: the way my mom is.
Current smell: it smells like new plastic near here. I really like that smell.
Current thing i should be doing: being at a show, even i had myself fooled into thinking i was actually gonna be there. Fuck my mom. BIATCH bia bia
Current desktop picture: evergreen terrace wallpaper
Current refreshment:iced tea
Current worry: too much but one killing me is absence of everything and the way i settle like a curd..a lonely curd with transparancy. and arms distance to frothy goodness. wtf.
isn't she a darling?
BELLZ31: oh romi! whats my kool aids name in skool?
BELLZ31: lol
BELLZ31: again
xChernobylLustx: cedric
BELLZ31: hehhehe
BELLZ31: thanx
BELLZ31: <3
xChernobylLustx: you love those tartar and fruit punch teef
xChernobylLustx: hmm maybe i see a foreshadowing of fruit punch and...
xChernobylLustx: i knew it!
xChernobylLustx: how did i not see this fast enough!
xChernobylLustx: YOU ARE CRAZY ABOUT MIKEY!
BELLZ31: what?
BELLZ31: lol
BELLZ31: explain
xChernobylLustx: fruit punch stained teeth
xChernobylLustx: as opposed to fruit punk and chocolate chip cokies
xChernobylLustx: chocolate chip cookies have chocolate
xChernobylLustx: DARK CHOCOLATE
xChernobylLustx: and you see the darkness in cedric hence your ode to..
xChernobylLustx: him.
xChernobylLustx: "as opposed to fruit punk and chocolate chip cokies" whoa i can't spell
BELLZ31: hahahahaha
xChernobylLustx: fruit punch and chocolate chip cookies
BELLZ31: hahha
BELLZ31: nooo!!
BELLZ31: lol
xChernobylLustx: yes.
xChernobylLustx: you've been yearning for a piece of that since..
xChernobylLustx: well i dunno sice when
BELLZ31: noo
BELLZ31: i want cedric
xChernobylLustx: but you want to run your hands through his assfro
xChernobylLustx: and bounce on 24's
xChernobylLustx: ..
xChernobylLustx: you want...
xChernobylLustx: I KNOW WHAT YOU WANT!
BELLZ31: lol
BELLZ31: what?
xChernobylLustx: and just thinking about it makes me blush...what a
xChernobylLustx: what a..
xChernobylLustx: SEXY LEGGED FREAK!
xChernobylLustx: you want to get rammed.
BELLZ31: hahahhaha
xChernobylLustx: oh yeah.
BELLZ31: oh yeah
BELLZ31: by that sexy bitch
BELLZ31: yes
xChernobylLustx: it's okay to wanna get rammed
BELLZ31: lol
xChernobylLustx: everyone wants to get rammed
BELLZ31: oh i know
xChernobylLustx: i wanna get rammed
xChernobylLustx: ..no, wait.
xChernobylLustx: YOU WANNA GET RAMMED
BELLZ31: hahahhaha
BELLZ31: i want cedric to ramm me
xChernobylLustx: so dirty. it's snuff film material.
xChernobylLustx: shame
xChernobylLustx: shame shame shame
xChernobylLustx: SUCIA!
BELLZ31: hahha
BELLZ31: O:-)
xChernobylLustx: hmm, hmm
xChernobylLustx: just wait till pat finds out
xChernobylLustx: YOU MAN JUGGLER!
BELLZ31: *gasps*!!!
BELLZ31: noooo
BELLZ31: lol
xChernobylLustx: you get all the men
xChernobylLustx: look at you
xChernobylLustx: man magnet
BELLZ31: i do not!!
xChernobylLustx: jeesus
BELLZ31: i wish
xChernobylLustx: yes you do
xChernobylLustx: you do. you have them all fall in love with you.
BELLZ31: noo
xChernobylLustx: you seduce them with that shy cover you have going on, but i know missy.
BELLZ31: omg i so wish
Last good cry: around the same time
Last library book checked out: i'm like banned cause i owe so much shit. Library criminal i be.
Last movie seen: dancer in the dark..which i redownloaded. Oh goodness
Last book read: re-read 'Catcher n the Rye'
Last cuss word uttered: "sweetjesuscockandvirgincunt"
Last beverage: ORANGINA wooo!
Last food consumed: bruschetta and some linguine al pesto
Last crush: is rampant <3
Last phone call: this guy who hasn't left me alone for a little over 2 years now.
Last tv show watched: nigga, fox is playing willy wonka and the chocolate factory
Last time showered: like 2 hours ago
Last shoes worn: i'm wearing my hi-tops right now
Last cd played: a boysetsfire demo
Last item bought: a bus transfer
Last downloaded: Common sense
Last annoyance: summer school
Last disappointment: not going to movienite.
Last soda drank: 1 month ago.
Last thing written:
My best role was playing shattered,
slow and thinking that i actually mattered
lines thrown about that made me think i actually comforted you
and it's too fucking bad that i'm only movie script beautiful.
Just to calm the thought of knowing no one wants this.
The previewed loop was set again to reel
Showed me in a chokehold and breathless
In the splendor of drowing in absence
Thats me,i'm gone.
Thats me, and this lense speaks...for every time i've failed and rose again to be somekind of something
it's so wrong
it's so wrong
so fucking wrong, and the last time i give myself to films
Don't dine me, just view me as the portrait that lost it's limelight.
i can't swallow the idea that the past was for refining. It's criminal how a thought encased in glamour is concealed.
it's filth, and it's not the kind of broadway i plan to stride on.
with the vaseline in my teeth and the barrel nudged behind my back.
it's the catwalk i chose to fade away from, i don't belong.
And it's not me being cruel.
It's not being dishonest or selfish at that
it's just what i strayed from and my role gone sour.
Thats me,i'm gone.
Thats me, and this lense speaks...for every time i've failed and rose again to be somekind of something
it's so wrong
it's so wrong
so fucking wrong, and the last time i give myself to films.
offstage, and about.
rampant in the things i wished for.
kinda.
with one less fan, one less bind, one less layer and that blindfold on my eyes.
but the same streak trying to break me in your movie critic way.
isn't that a lovely picture?
good film.
and it's so very you to take along the movie crew.
how gracefull and good riddance go be another fan,
miserable enough to sing the same stale laments from the lowest tower.
Last key used: "."
Last word spoken: "grace"
Last sleep: i fell asleep in the car after i got shot number 4
Last im: STEVEN CANDY PANTS WOOO!
Last sexual fantasy:that time i saw that bone crusher video..oh i aint never scurred for his fatass..lol, j/k i dunno
Last weird encounter:i thought i saw an ex today at a scene of a car accident by 107th avenue and my mom was like "LET'S GIVE HIM A RIIIDE! LOOK HOW CUTE..hey Romi why don't you..."
"-NO MOM!"
Last ice cream eaten: a while ago
Last time amused: filling the gas tank today the floor was covered with some slippery stuff and i almost busted my ass but managed to keep my balance with the noozle in one hand and my sweater in another, and my hair was in my face.
Last time hugged: yesterday
Last time scolded: woo, it's nothing new to me but i guess a little while ago my mom bitched about my hair and hated it so much she didn't let me go out... and i missed the fucking show when she actually made me believe i had a chance of going out tonight
Last time resentful: towards what? stupidity?
Last chair sat in: this cool orange chair
Last lipstick used: i put on this whore red just for fun this afternoon, but i dare not go out with it. Not now atleast, maybe when i feel crazy
Last underwear worn: these. They're the only pair of white i own and wear cause they look pretty cool.
Last bra worn: blue one, or is it black i dunno i'm too lazy to take my shirt off
Last shirt worn: "DOWNTOWN YMCA JUDO TEAM SAN ANTONIO, TEXAS" hoooha!
Last time dancing:i tell you hot hot heat makes ANYONE dance, it's he perfect "get off your ass and get ready to go out get dressed bitch" music
Last poster looked at: this amazing b/w bjork one i want and would do ANYTHING for.
1 MINUTE AGO: did the pee-pee dance and went to the bathroom
1 HOUR AGO: got a haircut
1 DAY AGO: was recording myself doing covers
1 WEEK AGO: started the shitastic summerschool nightmare
1 YEAR AGO: I was an asshole with uncomfortable shoes.
I HURT: my deltoida muscles, both of them with these stupid needles and the 4 more appointments to come
I HATE: those kids you see at doctors offices crying more than they should just to get the whole 30 seconds of vommited compassion...and all fuss with the people dwelling among the same stupid criteria with the faintest idea of empathy
I LOVE: music
I FEAR: the thought of falling and floor not being hard enough to kill me instantly or snap me out of the pain that comes wit adoring and losing
I HOPE: i get to go out and all those in need of whatever they get it. Get me?
I HIDE: my labret and nose ring..and my gauges often just to avoid shit.
I DRIVE: people crazy?
I MISS: too many things, too many feelings, too many times and the constance of caring.
I LEARNED: to look at everything in all perpectives and try not to overlook a few words.
I NEED: too many things, 95% of them not being material
I WANT: to be freeeeee. just like that whale
I THINK: too much
Current clothes: black pant,judo shirt,sauconys'
Current mood: alot plus the wishing for you to peel a few off my back
Current music: 'my unbroken reflection'-This Day Foward
Current taste: the taste of open,soft skin.
Current hair: I CUT IT TODAY! it kinda has the whole zelda cut feelgoing to it. Carlos is the coolest hairdresser that is not gay.
Current annoyance: the way my mom is.
Current smell: it smells like new plastic near here. I really like that smell.
Current thing i should be doing: being at a show, even i had myself fooled into thinking i was actually gonna be there. Fuck my mom. BIATCH bia bia
Current desktop picture: evergreen terrace wallpaper
Current refreshment:iced tea
Current worry: too much but one killing me is absence of everything and the way i settle like a curd..a lonely curd with transparancy. and arms distance to frothy goodness. wtf.
isn't she a darling?
BELLZ31: oh romi! whats my kool aids name in skool?
BELLZ31: lol
BELLZ31: again
xChernobylLustx: cedric
BELLZ31: hehhehe
BELLZ31: thanx
BELLZ31: <3
xChernobylLustx: you love those tartar and fruit punch teef
xChernobylLustx: hmm maybe i see a foreshadowing of fruit punch and...
xChernobylLustx: i knew it!
xChernobylLustx: how did i not see this fast enough!
xChernobylLustx: YOU ARE CRAZY ABOUT MIKEY!
BELLZ31: what?
BELLZ31: lol
BELLZ31: explain
xChernobylLustx: fruit punch stained teeth
xChernobylLustx: as opposed to fruit punk and chocolate chip cokies
xChernobylLustx: chocolate chip cookies have chocolate
xChernobylLustx: DARK CHOCOLATE
xChernobylLustx: and you see the darkness in cedric hence your ode to..
xChernobylLustx: him.
xChernobylLustx: "as opposed to fruit punk and chocolate chip cokies" whoa i can't spell
BELLZ31: hahahahaha
xChernobylLustx: fruit punch and chocolate chip cookies
BELLZ31: hahha
BELLZ31: nooo!!
BELLZ31: lol
xChernobylLustx: yes.
xChernobylLustx: you've been yearning for a piece of that since..
xChernobylLustx: well i dunno sice when
BELLZ31: noo
BELLZ31: i want cedric
xChernobylLustx: but you want to run your hands through his assfro
xChernobylLustx: and bounce on 24's
xChernobylLustx: ..
xChernobylLustx: you want...
xChernobylLustx: I KNOW WHAT YOU WANT!
BELLZ31: lol
BELLZ31: what?
xChernobylLustx: and just thinking about it makes me blush...what a
xChernobylLustx: what a..
xChernobylLustx: SEXY LEGGED FREAK!
xChernobylLustx: you want to get rammed.
BELLZ31: hahahhaha
xChernobylLustx: oh yeah.
BELLZ31: oh yeah
BELLZ31: by that sexy bitch
BELLZ31: yes
xChernobylLustx: it's okay to wanna get rammed
BELLZ31: lol
xChernobylLustx: everyone wants to get rammed
BELLZ31: oh i know
xChernobylLustx: i wanna get rammed
xChernobylLustx: ..no, wait.
xChernobylLustx: YOU WANNA GET RAMMED
BELLZ31: hahahhaha
BELLZ31: i want cedric to ramm me
xChernobylLustx: so dirty. it's snuff film material.
xChernobylLustx: shame
xChernobylLustx: shame shame shame
xChernobylLustx: SUCIA!
BELLZ31: hahha
BELLZ31: O:-)
xChernobylLustx: hmm, hmm
xChernobylLustx: just wait till pat finds out
xChernobylLustx: YOU MAN JUGGLER!
BELLZ31: *gasps*!!!
BELLZ31: noooo
BELLZ31: lol
xChernobylLustx: you get all the men
xChernobylLustx: look at you
xChernobylLustx: man magnet
BELLZ31: i do not!!
xChernobylLustx: jeesus
BELLZ31: i wish
xChernobylLustx: yes you do
xChernobylLustx: you do. you have them all fall in love with you.
BELLZ31: noo
xChernobylLustx: you seduce them with that shy cover you have going on, but i know missy.
BELLZ31: omg i so wish