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God. This is getting easier, but right now, right at this moment... it's hard. I know I shouldn't go digging into Myspace. It's just going to make me upset. I'll remember that from now on. Christina doesn't talk about him as much as she used to. She knows something. I bet he's found someone new. I know he has. Amanda. "I don't care about her!" You're a liar. I'm trying so hard to get past this. I'm so scared that I'm never going to find someone as good. Good looking, good style, good manners, good person all together. Never going to happen. Not here, not in Atlanta. I need to get out of here, away from all of these haunting memories.
All of my friends have significant others. Leaving me...alone. I wanted to go to a show tonight. I couldn't. I'm not going to go alone, I'm not like that. We settled on dinner. Christina and I.
God. Please help me to get past this. Please take away this pain, these memories, my curiosity. They all hurt so much. I know that we're not meant to be. We're totally different. I'm city... all the way. I love it. That's all that I truly know about myself. I love the city. I love hustle and bustle and being around people. They give me energy, confidence, they lift my spirits. That's all I know. Sad.
I want to meet someone. Someone who totally amazes me. Takes my breath away. Is beautiful both inside and out. Eric was, but he's not a Christian, he's atheist. And he does major drugs. Such fatal flaws. He had so much potential.
God. Please help me to find someone. I've been alone for an entire month, with only memories of happiness to live off of. I want to make new memories. Help me God. Give me strength. I'm tired of crying, of feeling sorry for myself. Please give me hope. Please help to settle my restless heart, to put it at ease. I love you.
All of my friends have significant others. Leaving me...alone. I wanted to go to a show tonight. I couldn't. I'm not going to go alone, I'm not like that. We settled on dinner. Christina and I.
God. Please help me to get past this. Please take away this pain, these memories, my curiosity. They all hurt so much. I know that we're not meant to be. We're totally different. I'm city... all the way. I love it. That's all that I truly know about myself. I love the city. I love hustle and bustle and being around people. They give me energy, confidence, they lift my spirits. That's all I know. Sad.
I want to meet someone. Someone who totally amazes me. Takes my breath away. Is beautiful both inside and out. Eric was, but he's not a Christian, he's atheist. And he does major drugs. Such fatal flaws. He had so much potential.
God. Please help me to find someone. I've been alone for an entire month, with only memories of happiness to live off of. I want to make new memories. Help me God. Give me strength. I'm tired of crying, of feeling sorry for myself. Please give me hope. Please help to settle my restless heart, to put it at ease. I love you.