You wake up that morning and you take Sam and you run.
The Song Remains the Same Squee Post
^ How sad am I that we changed the title of this episode?
Wincest underlined so you can easily skip to the good parts avoid the brotherfucking.
First thing I will say? Jen invited one of the girls from her scene in the cabaret over after practice because she is a Vampire Diaries/Supernatural fan. Jen thought I would like to have someone to squee with. Eroneous. You know what I don't want when an episode is doing epic things that will make me cry more than I can handle? A complete stranger who will obviously not be fanly enough and who was really thrown off by the fact that I took notes the whole time.
*sigh* Look at the pretty then. Look at shiny, shiny Anna Milton when she was a fierce bitch. Bye bye, fierce!Anna!
I'd seen promo pictures of Jensen with the strippers, so I knew that would be this scene as soon as I saw Dean's face. Dean Winchester definitely dreams about that when he isn't dreaming about his brother's cock, but he'd better hope Sam doesn't try that sleep walking shit again because jealous girlfriend!Sammy is a cruel mistress.
Anna is so beautiful. SO BEAUTIFUL. I love how she looks at Dean, she has his number, for serious. I love how awkward he was about it, too. COME ON, LIKE ANNA "I USED THE LAST NIGHT ON EARTH LINE BEFORE YOU COULD" MILTON DOESN'T KNOW WHAT YOU DREAM ABOUT, BIG BOY.
Anyone else think Dean took all of this news just a little too calmly?
OMG. THAT SCENE WHERE ANNA AND CAS WERE TALKING. I ship it guys, in a sad way because they ruined her character. But that history they have? The way they talk? How well they clearly know each other? ANNA/CASSS.
CAS WILL FIND ANOTHER WAY. Ok, this episode. Made such. warm. things. happen to the tiny little corner of my heart that Castiel lives in. His proud little boy delivery on "Sam Winchester is my friend." PJSDOSDJFODJGOIJDFOGJFDOIJGFOIJGF. THEY ARE FRIENDSSSSS. IT'S SO CUTE. THE THREE OF THEM, I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO DO.
SAM NOT EVEN HESITATING ON BEING WILLING TO DIE. HELP ME MY HEART. Also! Jared looked DELICIOUS this episode, better than he has in a while. Of course, Jensen was also proportionally more beautiful--WHY WILL YOU NOT LET YOUR BOYFRIEND SHINE, YOU CRUEL, CRUEL GORGEOUS FREAK?
AND DEAN NOT EVEN HESITATING ON SAYING NO.
AND TELLING CAS TO SIDE WITH HIM AND CAS SIDING WITH HIM.
AND THE FACT THAT I SHIP SASSY (I don't ship it at all, really. But if I did ship it? I would ship it so hard.) MORE THAN DISASTIEL (I still hold this ship has no merits, sorry Dean/Cas fans), BUT MORE THAN ANYTHING, I AGREE WITH OLIVIA THAT CASTIEL IS EARNING THAT ONE NIGHT WITH THE WINCHESTERS FOR REALLY.
Castiel tried to make a pop culture joke! He's so cute, he's like a puppy. "I did good, Dean? Look, look whatI did? Good? Good? *wags tail*" I LOVE HIM.
Though I kind of thought Castiel sounded awful reading the ritual. Which is, um...weird. Since he is a, you know, angel.
Sorry Dean/Cas shippers. This guy sells his soul for the people he really Loves. And he just told Castiel to weaken himself for him. A little sad on behalf of their friendship, but mostly just smug. (Ordonez 413)
Dean saying "Bend your knees." to Sam before the time travel was really fucking cute and funny to me for...some reason.
I'm still really annoyed at the Castiel-cut-off-from-Heaven mythology. He can transport multiple people into the future but he can't kill a demon? I mean, I get that it weakened him, but they are so ridiculous about the rules on this--it only counts when they feel like making a plot point out of it and I am annoyed.
LOL. Sam Winchester on 70's moustaches. Have you seen your fucking sideburns lately, guy? You belong here.
OH HAI--GREASE.
Dean wants to buy Microsoft stock? OK, WHO IS WRITING THE POST-APOCALYPSE INVESTMENT BANKER!DEAN STORY? Because I need it.
"Little nerdy dude with wings." and "What do I look like, Dr. Angel Medicine Woman?" A++. I LOL'D. AND THEN I SERIOUS'D. AND THEN I LOL'D SUM MOAR.
Deabn Winchester's conviction that Mary and John will not believe him because Back to the Future and The Terminator have not come out yet? Wonderful. His pop culture addiction is such a fabulous part of his character to me, it is equal parts funny and tragic.
MARY AND JOHN AT HOME BEING HAPPY TOGETHER AND IN LOVE? MY HEART AGAIN. HELP ME.
John saying Dean looks familiar? I wanted to shoot him. JOHN IS NOT THAT STUPID, GUYS. He has had multiple long conversations with him, one resulting in his buying a car. He remembers you, dude.
OMG. SAMMY'S "I'M GOING TO CRY" FACE JUST SHAKING JOHN'S HAND. MY FUCKING HEART. HALLLPPP.
OMFG. SAMMY. MEETING HIS MOMMY. AND THE WAY HE LOOKED AT HER. AND THE WHOLE THING. AND MY EYE ARE WELLING UP AGAIN JUST TYPING THIS. OMG, I JUST SOBBED. OUT LOUD. JUST THINKING OF IT. MY HEART GUYS, I NEED IT TO LIVE. SOMEBODY FUCKING HELP ME.
John: How are you guys related?
Rocky Horror!Elisa: SEXUALLY! \O/
Sam replying "plumbing" when asked what he does? Incredibly relevant to my Sam/Dean = Luigi + Princess Peach/Mario incest argument. Don't worry guys, I will refrain from including Princess Sam in this post. THIS EPISODE IS NOT TO BE TAKEN LIGHTLY.
Also, Dean replying "Scrap metal." HEY GUYS, IF YOU CAN'T GET YOUR STORY STRAIGHT, YOU SHOULD JUST SAY "ANTIQUING."
Mary glaring at Deancakes and wanting him to go. OMG, SAD.
Angels = "Twice as strong as demons and bigger dicks." Oh, Deaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan <333333.
D: BUT I'M STILL SO DISAPPOINTED ABOUT ANNA. DNFW EVOL ANNA. ANNA WAS THE FIERCEST BITCH ON THE PLANET, ONE OF THE ONLY FEMALE CHARACTERS I GAVE A SHIT ABOUT. Like, this seriously could have been any angel. And I am letting it go for the sake of this episode because I get that being ass reamed in Heaven will set a bitch loopy, but unlike Cas she never gets redemption and that's really fucking lame to me because this is the first time she has ever been wrong. Nothing in her past ever hinted that she would have this kind of view point and I just really hate that this is how her character is going to be remembered. Don't bring her back just to ruin her, you know? I was perfectly fine being convinced the angels had killed her. Did I want to see her again? Yes! But not to ruin her. My only complaint about the episode. I feared this episode for months, expecting to hate it because of this. Instead it is just a sad paragraph of "I understand and am over it but must we?" in a sea of OH MY FUCKING GOD MY HEART WHAT THE FUCK SOMEBODY SAVE ME, MY HEART WILL EXPLODE <3333333333333_<333333333333. But I did feel it had to be addressed.
"No, but you can distract them." - SAMPANTS. HI. I'VE BEEN WAITING A LONG TIME TO MARRY YOU.
JOHN DRIVING THE IMPALA. AND THEM HAVING AN ORDINARY FAMILY FIGHT.
John: I will turn this car around.
Dean: Awkward family road trip.
Sam: Yeah, no kidding.
OH MY GOD. AND THEY LIKED IT. BECAUSE IT WAS NORMAL. HOLD ME, SOMEBODY HOLD ME.
The whole thing in the house. Just fucking end me. Dean talking to John. Mary talking to Sam. SAM TALKING TO JOHN. OH MY GOD, DEAN TALKING TO MARY. END MY LIFE, IT HURTS TOO MUCH, LIVING HURTS TOO MUCH.
Thought it was weird that everyone but Dean was calling Anna an "it". And Dean was all "It's a girl, okay? I only fuck girls. No exceptions. OH HAI, SAMMY!...one exception!"
DEAN. TALKING TO JOHN. BEFORE JOHN WAS AN ASSHOLE. OH MY GOD. JOHN, WE KNOW YOU ARE NOT USELESS. BELIEVE ME, DEAN KNOWS THAT. OMG. AHHHHH.
SAM TALKING TO JOHN. THIS SCENE. HOLY FUCKING SHIT. GOLD. THIS JUST CEMENTED THE EPISODE AS ONE OF THE GREATS. Jared's acting? Has never been so spectacular. He did things to my heart that even Show has rarely ever managed to do to my heart. I am so glad he said these things to John, because he is a girl and Dean sure isn't going to let him talk it out. And poor not-an-asshole-yet!John let him talk it out even though it was just some random guy looking at him with that sad, sad face and talking as if it's to him. I was so annoyed at John giving that speech until they erased him memory. I mean, he went crazy when Mary died, fine. BUT IF HE'D DONE IT AFTER CONSCIOUSLY SAYING ALL OF THAT STUFF I WOULD HAVE HATED HIM EVEN MORE.
AND SAM UNDERSTANDS. BECAUSE HE HAS SEEN MARY. AND TALKED TO HER. AND HE LOVES HER SO MUCH. AND HE WOULD HAVE LOST IT, TOO. I SHOULD NOT BE CRYING FIVE HOURS AFTER THE FACT JUST FROM THINKING ABOUT IT, YA'LL. MY HEAAARRRRRRRRRTTTTTTTTTTTTT. SAVE IT.
"I forgive him, for what it did to us." - Oh, you mean for the fact that is forced you to find your only happiness in sex with your brother?
*coughs awkwardly* Uh, no. I did not want to have sex with this Uriel. Because. Um...Uriel is bad and evil. And I do not want to have sex with him. At all, really...OH MY FUCKING GOD, SOME ONE BREAK ME OFF A PIECE OF THAT BROWN SUGAR, OMNOMNOM.
Angels are such dicks. *sigh*
THE SCENE. WITH DEAN. TALKING TO HIS MOMMY. ABOUT WHAT SHE USED TO DO FOR HIM. HE WAS FOUR YEARS OLD WHEN SHE DIED, YOU GUYS. HE CLUNG TO ALL OF THAT. DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH THIS HURT ME? DO YOU KNOW? YOU DON'T. YOU DO NOT. SHE SANG HIM BEATLES SONGS AND MADE HIM TOMATO AND RICE SOUP AND HE REMEMBERED THE SONG AND WHY THAT WAS THE SOUP SHE MADE AND HE WAS FOUR YEARS OLD. I hurt everywhere. No, seriously. This character. These characters. I hurt so much. Jensen's faces this episode. I hate him for the things that character does to me. Goodness I hurt.
And he tried to tell her again. "You wake up that morning and you take Sam and you run." Not "Take us." No. He only cares about her and Sam. They are his entire universe, guys. HURT HURT HURT.
And then Sam coming in. And the three of them together. AND DEAN TELLING HER NOT TO MAKE HIM. BECAUSE HE IS OKAY WITH NEVER BEING BORN. I hate my life.
"Your children will be cursed." Yeah, this, so much this. And incestuous, too, hooohhh boy.
SHE IS PREGNANT WITH DEAN. AND SAM IS TALKING TO HER. AND HE IS IN THERE. And I am not even ashamed any more--I want the Sam fucking Mary to get closer to her and baby Dean fic. I want it more than I want almost anything else in the world. Parent/child? So never something I'm okay with but this family? All kinds of fucked up and it would be beautiful.
Her face. Her line delivery. When she found out her kids were hunters and thought she'd done that. This episode hurt me so much it's disgusting. But I Loved every minute of it because ALL I WANTED THIS WEEK WAS TO CRY AND OMG, DELIVERED IN FULL. She really would kill John if she ever found out what he did to those boys.
My wife had a paragraph in her post that was too fucking gorgeous not to agree with--I really want the fic where Mary's memory is not erased because thank God they erased John's, but how beautiful would it have been if she had remembered. And known Sam. And chosen to have him, even though she would die, OUT OF EPIC LOVE. And then she would have this little babby in her crib. And she would know what he was going to grow up to look and sound like. And just. OIHSDISJIFHSDIUHFSDIU. SOMEBODY WRITE US THIS AU RIGHT THE FUCK YESTERDAY.
Random Commercial Comment: Did anyone else have the search engine commercial with all the Shining jokes? I was DYING laughing!
WAI SO CRASHING MY EPIC FAMILIAL LOVE FEST, TWO DICK ANGELS, WAI SO CRASHING? Two angels is just way too many, that is really bad news.
HOLY FUCKING SHIT. SHE ACTUALLY KILLED SAM WINCHESTER. I DID NOT SEE THAT COMING.
Worth it for Dean's faces and how he almost stopped struggling after that and the "Sammy!"
MARY, PROTECT YOUR FUCKING BABIES.
OMFG. MICHAEL IS UP IN JOHN. At his point, Jen's friend and I both yelled "WHAT?!?!?!?!!" even though I *knew* he was going to be in this episode. It was actually a kind of funny moment.
DEAN'S FIRST THOUGHT BEING "FIX IT." AND THE FIERCE WAY HE SAID IT. <33333333333 THAT! IS WHAT HAS BEEN MISSING FROM THIS SHOW FOR THE LAST FEW EPISODES.
"And then I'll fix your darling little Sammy."
He is Dean's. And he is darling. This show could not be more incestuous if it tried. HEY, DEAN...THE ANGELS SAW WHAT YOU DID THAR. (And when I say "Wut u did thar" I mean "chugging your brother's semen like GATORade)
So the vessel thing comes down from John's side of the family. Interesting. Also, Olivia pointed out that if the Boys are decendants of Cain and Abel, then thousands of years of incest came together to make these incestuous brothers a reality. A++.
THERE IS NO "YOU AND I" BETWEEN YOU AND DEAN, MICHAEL. THERE IS NO VESSEL BOYS AND ASSUREDLY NO DEAN KILLING SAM. I looooved how they did his character--Luciferlike in his charm with slightly better motives but you can just tell, he is a slippery son-of-a-bitch.
DEAN'S FACE THIS ENTIRE SCENE. JENSEN ACKLES, I AM SO SORRY NO ONE WILL EVER APPRECIATE THAT YOU ARE A GENUINELY TALENTED ACTOR.
DEAN'S LINE ABOUT BEING THE OBEDIENT SON BEING A DEAD-END STREET. YES, YES, MOTHERFUCKING YES.
This was such a good Dean episode. It just reminded me in the best ways why I am a Dean!girl. He is so sad. But I really adore his conviction that this destiny thing is crap, even if you can tell it's a little shaken up in the end. He has so much integrity and something to believe in and together, him and Sam can get through anything.
Free will is wonderful and Dean has it and I LOVED HIS LINE ABOUT HIS PUNY INSIGNIFICANT LIFE.
LOL. Cas sure was close to Sam there. Me thinks he has a crush. Me thinks Sam is going to have that personal space chat Dean had to have.
"One ex-blood junkie, one drop out with six bucks to his name, and Mr. Comatose over there." DEAAAAAAAAANNNNN <3333_<3333
I thought that Cstiel was going to save Mary in the end and that she was going to remember it and that's where the "Angels are watching over you." line was going to come from and I thought it was going to be equal parts sweet and true (because Castiel really is watching over Dean). In context of this episode? Pretty stupid. Even if she doesn't remember. I am annoyed.
OMG. HER TALKING TO HER BELLY. DEAN REALLY IS A TROUBLE MAKER. OMG. JOHN AND MARY. TARAGEDYYY.
I know almost nothing about next week. It didn't look promising from the preview, but I trust Ben Edlund. *shrug* WHAT COULD POSSIBLY GO WRONG AFTER AN EPISODE THIS INCREDIBLE AND HEART BREAKING? (famous last words)
I have done. Now to sleep, for truly I shall hate mineself in the morning.
^ How sad am I that we changed the title of this episode?
Wincest underlined so you can easily skip to the good parts avoid the brotherfucking.
First thing I will say? Jen invited one of the girls from her scene in the cabaret over after practice because she is a Vampire Diaries/Supernatural fan. Jen thought I would like to have someone to squee with. Eroneous. You know what I don't want when an episode is doing epic things that will make me cry more than I can handle? A complete stranger who will obviously not be fanly enough and who was really thrown off by the fact that I took notes the whole time.
*sigh* Look at the pretty then. Look at shiny, shiny Anna Milton when she was a fierce bitch. Bye bye, fierce!Anna!
I'd seen promo pictures of Jensen with the strippers, so I knew that would be this scene as soon as I saw Dean's face. Dean Winchester definitely dreams about that when he isn't dreaming about his brother's cock, but he'd better hope Sam doesn't try that sleep walking shit again because jealous girlfriend!Sammy is a cruel mistress.
Anna is so beautiful. SO BEAUTIFUL. I love how she looks at Dean, she has his number, for serious. I love how awkward he was about it, too. COME ON, LIKE ANNA "I USED THE LAST NIGHT ON EARTH LINE BEFORE YOU COULD" MILTON DOESN'T KNOW WHAT YOU DREAM ABOUT, BIG BOY.
Anyone else think Dean took all of this news just a little too calmly?
OMG. THAT SCENE WHERE ANNA AND CAS WERE TALKING. I ship it guys, in a sad way because they ruined her character. But that history they have? The way they talk? How well they clearly know each other? ANNA/CASSS.
CAS WILL FIND ANOTHER WAY. Ok, this episode. Made such. warm. things. happen to the tiny little corner of my heart that Castiel lives in. His proud little boy delivery on "Sam Winchester is my friend." PJSDOSDJFODJGOIJDFOGJFDOIJGFOIJGF. THEY ARE FRIENDSSSSS. IT'S SO CUTE. THE THREE OF THEM, I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO DO.
SAM NOT EVEN HESITATING ON BEING WILLING TO DIE. HELP ME MY HEART. Also! Jared looked DELICIOUS this episode, better than he has in a while. Of course, Jensen was also proportionally more beautiful--WHY WILL YOU NOT LET YOUR BOYFRIEND SHINE, YOU CRUEL, CRUEL GORGEOUS FREAK?
AND DEAN NOT EVEN HESITATING ON SAYING NO.
AND TELLING CAS TO SIDE WITH HIM AND CAS SIDING WITH HIM.
AND THE FACT THAT I SHIP SASSY (I don't ship it at all, really. But if I did ship it? I would ship it so hard.) MORE THAN DISASTIEL (I still hold this ship has no merits, sorry Dean/Cas fans), BUT MORE THAN ANYTHING, I AGREE WITH OLIVIA THAT CASTIEL IS EARNING THAT ONE NIGHT WITH THE WINCHESTERS FOR REALLY.
Castiel tried to make a pop culture joke! He's so cute, he's like a puppy. "I did good, Dean? Look, look whatI did? Good? Good? *wags tail*" I LOVE HIM.
Though I kind of thought Castiel sounded awful reading the ritual. Which is, um...weird. Since he is a, you know, angel.
Sorry Dean/Cas shippers. This guy sells his soul for the people he really Loves. And he just told Castiel to weaken himself for him. A little sad on behalf of their friendship, but mostly just smug. (Ordonez 413)
Dean saying "Bend your knees." to Sam before the time travel was really fucking cute and funny to me for...some reason.
I'm still really annoyed at the Castiel-cut-off-from-Heaven mythology. He can transport multiple people into the future but he can't kill a demon? I mean, I get that it weakened him, but they are so ridiculous about the rules on this--it only counts when they feel like making a plot point out of it and I am annoyed.
LOL. Sam Winchester on 70's moustaches. Have you seen your fucking sideburns lately, guy? You belong here.
OH HAI--GREASE.
Dean wants to buy Microsoft stock? OK, WHO IS WRITING THE POST-APOCALYPSE INVESTMENT BANKER!DEAN STORY? Because I need it.
"Little nerdy dude with wings." and "What do I look like, Dr. Angel Medicine Woman?" A++. I LOL'D. AND THEN I SERIOUS'D. AND THEN I LOL'D SUM MOAR.
Deabn Winchester's conviction that Mary and John will not believe him because Back to the Future and The Terminator have not come out yet? Wonderful. His pop culture addiction is such a fabulous part of his character to me, it is equal parts funny and tragic.
MARY AND JOHN AT HOME BEING HAPPY TOGETHER AND IN LOVE? MY HEART AGAIN. HELP ME.
John saying Dean looks familiar? I wanted to shoot him. JOHN IS NOT THAT STUPID, GUYS. He has had multiple long conversations with him, one resulting in his buying a car. He remembers you, dude.
OMG. SAMMY'S "I'M GOING TO CRY" FACE JUST SHAKING JOHN'S HAND. MY FUCKING HEART. HALLLPPP.
OMFG. SAMMY. MEETING HIS MOMMY. AND THE WAY HE LOOKED AT HER. AND THE WHOLE THING. AND MY EYE ARE WELLING UP AGAIN JUST TYPING THIS. OMG, I JUST SOBBED. OUT LOUD. JUST THINKING OF IT. MY HEART GUYS, I NEED IT TO LIVE. SOMEBODY FUCKING HELP ME.
John: How are you guys related?
Rocky Horror!Elisa: SEXUALLY! \O/
Sam replying "plumbing" when asked what he does? Incredibly relevant to my Sam/Dean = Luigi + Princess Peach/Mario incest argument. Don't worry guys, I will refrain from including Princess Sam in this post. THIS EPISODE IS NOT TO BE TAKEN LIGHTLY.
Also, Dean replying "Scrap metal." HEY GUYS, IF YOU CAN'T GET YOUR STORY STRAIGHT, YOU SHOULD JUST SAY "ANTIQUING."
Mary glaring at Deancakes and wanting him to go. OMG, SAD.
Angels = "Twice as strong as demons and bigger dicks." Oh, Deaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan <333333.
D: BUT I'M STILL SO DISAPPOINTED ABOUT ANNA. DNFW EVOL ANNA. ANNA WAS THE FIERCEST BITCH ON THE PLANET, ONE OF THE ONLY FEMALE CHARACTERS I GAVE A SHIT ABOUT. Like, this seriously could have been any angel. And I am letting it go for the sake of this episode because I get that being ass reamed in Heaven will set a bitch loopy, but unlike Cas she never gets redemption and that's really fucking lame to me because this is the first time she has ever been wrong. Nothing in her past ever hinted that she would have this kind of view point and I just really hate that this is how her character is going to be remembered. Don't bring her back just to ruin her, you know? I was perfectly fine being convinced the angels had killed her. Did I want to see her again? Yes! But not to ruin her. My only complaint about the episode. I feared this episode for months, expecting to hate it because of this. Instead it is just a sad paragraph of "I understand and am over it but must we?" in a sea of OH MY FUCKING GOD MY HEART WHAT THE FUCK SOMEBODY SAVE ME, MY HEART WILL EXPLODE <3333333333333_<333333333333. But I did feel it had to be addressed.
"No, but you can distract them." - SAMPANTS. HI. I'VE BEEN WAITING A LONG TIME TO MARRY YOU.
JOHN DRIVING THE IMPALA. AND THEM HAVING AN ORDINARY FAMILY FIGHT.
John: I will turn this car around.
Dean: Awkward family road trip.
Sam: Yeah, no kidding.
OH MY GOD. AND THEY LIKED IT. BECAUSE IT WAS NORMAL. HOLD ME, SOMEBODY HOLD ME.
The whole thing in the house. Just fucking end me. Dean talking to John. Mary talking to Sam. SAM TALKING TO JOHN. OH MY GOD, DEAN TALKING TO MARY. END MY LIFE, IT HURTS TOO MUCH, LIVING HURTS TOO MUCH.
Thought it was weird that everyone but Dean was calling Anna an "it". And Dean was all "It's a girl, okay? I only fuck girls. No exceptions. OH HAI, SAMMY!...one exception!"
DEAN. TALKING TO JOHN. BEFORE JOHN WAS AN ASSHOLE. OH MY GOD. JOHN, WE KNOW YOU ARE NOT USELESS. BELIEVE ME, DEAN KNOWS THAT. OMG. AHHHHH.
SAM TALKING TO JOHN. THIS SCENE. HOLY FUCKING SHIT. GOLD. THIS JUST CEMENTED THE EPISODE AS ONE OF THE GREATS. Jared's acting? Has never been so spectacular. He did things to my heart that even Show has rarely ever managed to do to my heart. I am so glad he said these things to John, because he is a girl and Dean sure isn't going to let him talk it out. And poor not-an-asshole-yet!John let him talk it out even though it was just some random guy looking at him with that sad, sad face and talking as if it's to him. I was so annoyed at John giving that speech until they erased him memory. I mean, he went crazy when Mary died, fine. BUT IF HE'D DONE IT AFTER CONSCIOUSLY SAYING ALL OF THAT STUFF I WOULD HAVE HATED HIM EVEN MORE.
AND SAM UNDERSTANDS. BECAUSE HE HAS SEEN MARY. AND TALKED TO HER. AND HE LOVES HER SO MUCH. AND HE WOULD HAVE LOST IT, TOO. I SHOULD NOT BE CRYING FIVE HOURS AFTER THE FACT JUST FROM THINKING ABOUT IT, YA'LL. MY HEAAARRRRRRRRRTTTTTTTTTTTTT. SAVE IT.
"I forgive him, for what it did to us." - Oh, you mean for the fact that is forced you to find your only happiness in sex with your brother?
*coughs awkwardly* Uh, no. I did not want to have sex with this Uriel. Because. Um...Uriel is bad and evil. And I do not want to have sex with him. At all, really...OH MY FUCKING GOD, SOME ONE BREAK ME OFF A PIECE OF THAT BROWN SUGAR, OMNOMNOM.
Angels are such dicks. *sigh*
THE SCENE. WITH DEAN. TALKING TO HIS MOMMY. ABOUT WHAT SHE USED TO DO FOR HIM. HE WAS FOUR YEARS OLD WHEN SHE DIED, YOU GUYS. HE CLUNG TO ALL OF THAT. DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH THIS HURT ME? DO YOU KNOW? YOU DON'T. YOU DO NOT. SHE SANG HIM BEATLES SONGS AND MADE HIM TOMATO AND RICE SOUP AND HE REMEMBERED THE SONG AND WHY THAT WAS THE SOUP SHE MADE AND HE WAS FOUR YEARS OLD. I hurt everywhere. No, seriously. This character. These characters. I hurt so much. Jensen's faces this episode. I hate him for the things that character does to me. Goodness I hurt.
And he tried to tell her again. "You wake up that morning and you take Sam and you run." Not "Take us." No. He only cares about her and Sam. They are his entire universe, guys. HURT HURT HURT.
And then Sam coming in. And the three of them together. AND DEAN TELLING HER NOT TO MAKE HIM. BECAUSE HE IS OKAY WITH NEVER BEING BORN. I hate my life.
"Your children will be cursed." Yeah, this, so much this. And incestuous, too, hooohhh boy.
SHE IS PREGNANT WITH DEAN. AND SAM IS TALKING TO HER. AND HE IS IN THERE. And I am not even ashamed any more--I want the Sam fucking Mary to get closer to her and baby Dean fic. I want it more than I want almost anything else in the world. Parent/child? So never something I'm okay with but this family? All kinds of fucked up and it would be beautiful.
Her face. Her line delivery. When she found out her kids were hunters and thought she'd done that. This episode hurt me so much it's disgusting. But I Loved every minute of it because ALL I WANTED THIS WEEK WAS TO CRY AND OMG, DELIVERED IN FULL. She really would kill John if she ever found out what he did to those boys.
My wife had a paragraph in her post that was too fucking gorgeous not to agree with--I really want the fic where Mary's memory is not erased because thank God they erased John's, but how beautiful would it have been if she had remembered. And known Sam. And chosen to have him, even though she would die, OUT OF EPIC LOVE. And then she would have this little babby in her crib. And she would know what he was going to grow up to look and sound like. And just. OIHSDISJIFHSDIUHFSDIU. SOMEBODY WRITE US THIS AU RIGHT THE FUCK YESTERDAY.
Random Commercial Comment: Did anyone else have the search engine commercial with all the Shining jokes? I was DYING laughing!
WAI SO CRASHING MY EPIC FAMILIAL LOVE FEST, TWO DICK ANGELS, WAI SO CRASHING? Two angels is just way too many, that is really bad news.
HOLY FUCKING SHIT. SHE ACTUALLY KILLED SAM WINCHESTER. I DID NOT SEE THAT COMING.
Worth it for Dean's faces and how he almost stopped struggling after that and the "Sammy!"
MARY, PROTECT YOUR FUCKING BABIES.
OMFG. MICHAEL IS UP IN JOHN. At his point, Jen's friend and I both yelled "WHAT?!?!?!?!!" even though I *knew* he was going to be in this episode. It was actually a kind of funny moment.
DEAN'S FIRST THOUGHT BEING "FIX IT." AND THE FIERCE WAY HE SAID IT. <33333333333 THAT! IS WHAT HAS BEEN MISSING FROM THIS SHOW FOR THE LAST FEW EPISODES.
"And then I'll fix your darling little Sammy."
He is Dean's. And he is darling. This show could not be more incestuous if it tried. HEY, DEAN...THE ANGELS SAW WHAT YOU DID THAR. (And when I say "Wut u did thar" I mean "chugging your brother's semen like GATORade)
So the vessel thing comes down from John's side of the family. Interesting. Also, Olivia pointed out that if the Boys are decendants of Cain and Abel, then thousands of years of incest came together to make these incestuous brothers a reality. A++.
THERE IS NO "YOU AND I" BETWEEN YOU AND DEAN, MICHAEL. THERE IS NO VESSEL BOYS AND ASSUREDLY NO DEAN KILLING SAM. I looooved how they did his character--Luciferlike in his charm with slightly better motives but you can just tell, he is a slippery son-of-a-bitch.
DEAN'S FACE THIS ENTIRE SCENE. JENSEN ACKLES, I AM SO SORRY NO ONE WILL EVER APPRECIATE THAT YOU ARE A GENUINELY TALENTED ACTOR.
DEAN'S LINE ABOUT BEING THE OBEDIENT SON BEING A DEAD-END STREET. YES, YES, MOTHERFUCKING YES.
This was such a good Dean episode. It just reminded me in the best ways why I am a Dean!girl. He is so sad. But I really adore his conviction that this destiny thing is crap, even if you can tell it's a little shaken up in the end. He has so much integrity and something to believe in and together, him and Sam can get through anything.
Free will is wonderful and Dean has it and I LOVED HIS LINE ABOUT HIS PUNY INSIGNIFICANT LIFE.
LOL. Cas sure was close to Sam there. Me thinks he has a crush. Me thinks Sam is going to have that personal space chat Dean had to have.
"One ex-blood junkie, one drop out with six bucks to his name, and Mr. Comatose over there." DEAAAAAAAAANNNNN <3333_<3333
I thought that Cstiel was going to save Mary in the end and that she was going to remember it and that's where the "Angels are watching over you." line was going to come from and I thought it was going to be equal parts sweet and true (because Castiel really is watching over Dean). In context of this episode? Pretty stupid. Even if she doesn't remember. I am annoyed.
OMG. HER TALKING TO HER BELLY. DEAN REALLY IS A TROUBLE MAKER. OMG. JOHN AND MARY. TARAGEDYYY.
I know almost nothing about next week. It didn't look promising from the preview, but I trust Ben Edlund. *shrug* WHAT COULD POSSIBLY GO WRONG AFTER AN EPISODE THIS INCREDIBLE AND HEART BREAKING? (famous last words)
I have done. Now to sleep, for truly I shall hate mineself in the morning.