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I first heard about Zwan from Peter in journalism on Tuesday and I'm downloading some of their stuff, pretty good.
Dude, ever since being accepted to Purdue, I've been frustrated. Why won't UW reply to me quicker? Dangit.
I don't normally do this, but I've really, seriously thought about my faith and why I believe. Sure, I've heard it all and experienced some of it, but I want to take it more seriously. Maybe it's because some people that aren't doing the walk seriously that's affecting me. Oh help, God.
Watching that Transwhatever video today, I was somewhat touched and kinda jealous it hasn't taken place here or anything. The more I see Mr. Muller, I sense a little bit of fakeness in him. He totally forgot about some other people's birthdays during January or something and Angie had her birthday on Tuesday, he called her up and sang happy birthday. What the heck dude.
I hope to work out of this mess but I have no motivation to do anything well here anymore. The homework, tests, I'll still do them and study but they are all meaningless. And when all this "slackness" passes by, college will come and we will have to study our butts off again as well as read insane number of pages. Is this all meaningless? Why won't God do something now? AM I BEING TOO FRICKEN STUBBORN? I DON'T KNOW. WHY DON'T PEOPLE CARE AS MUCH AS THEY USED TO? I'M ABOUT TO FUME. WTF?
ARGH... Total frustration. Maybe I'm just thinking negatively but ya, I think when I leave, it won't be as bittersweet as I thought it would be. What da heck. What's wrong with me? I want God to do something but ya, most people here don't give a crap. It's sick and it's sad, and I'm starting to not give a crap as well. God help me.
So what else can I add? I think we all need to find a purpose and a meaning in our lives and strive towards that goal. That's all I have to say for now... Keep striving I guess. This sucks. I hope in the end there's gonna be a big reward for all this hard crap we're going through. Frick it.
Dude, ever since being accepted to Purdue, I've been frustrated. Why won't UW reply to me quicker? Dangit.
I don't normally do this, but I've really, seriously thought about my faith and why I believe. Sure, I've heard it all and experienced some of it, but I want to take it more seriously. Maybe it's because some people that aren't doing the walk seriously that's affecting me. Oh help, God.
Watching that Transwhatever video today, I was somewhat touched and kinda jealous it hasn't taken place here or anything. The more I see Mr. Muller, I sense a little bit of fakeness in him. He totally forgot about some other people's birthdays during January or something and Angie had her birthday on Tuesday, he called her up and sang happy birthday. What the heck dude.
I hope to work out of this mess but I have no motivation to do anything well here anymore. The homework, tests, I'll still do them and study but they are all meaningless. And when all this "slackness" passes by, college will come and we will have to study our butts off again as well as read insane number of pages. Is this all meaningless? Why won't God do something now? AM I BEING TOO FRICKEN STUBBORN? I DON'T KNOW. WHY DON'T PEOPLE CARE AS MUCH AS THEY USED TO? I'M ABOUT TO FUME. WTF?
ARGH... Total frustration. Maybe I'm just thinking negatively but ya, I think when I leave, it won't be as bittersweet as I thought it would be. What da heck. What's wrong with me? I want God to do something but ya, most people here don't give a crap. It's sick and it's sad, and I'm starting to not give a crap as well. God help me.
So what else can I add? I think we all need to find a purpose and a meaning in our lives and strive towards that goal. That's all I have to say for now... Keep striving I guess. This sucks. I hope in the end there's gonna be a big reward for all this hard crap we're going through. Frick it.