I love AA. If you would have told me I'd make that statement even just about three weeks ago I'd probably call you crazy, but it's true. I met a girl there that I adore named Claire- she's 18 and she's been sober for two years now. She was at the first meeting I went to and she was the first one who welcomed me to AA, and the one I spent an hour talking to after the meetings. She was at the same rehab and had the same probation officer I currently have, so I have this feeling that we were meant to meet eachother because we have so much in common that we can relate to.
Anyways, I'm ready to start going to meetings regularly with Claire, and admitt to the fact that I'm an alcoholic. I'm also ready to get a sponser and start working the 12 steps out AA. Basically I'm just ready for a change. I really want to change my life around.
Old Me
I think I'm going to look at this hideous picture every time I'm struggling to stay sober to look at how unhappy and hateful I used to not only look but be, and just how self absorbed I've been for the past couple years. One of the ways to staying sober is just remembering all the bad times you had when you were using instead of have a distorted view about what's fun.