The Joys of being a Chem Major
So I've got physical chemistry lab in about 30 minutes. Woo Hoo. I have a report due in there today. It's 11 pages long. I finished it at about 11pm last night. About 11:45 I began studying for my organic chemistry test I had today. Then I had my devotion about 12:30.
So yesterday in lab my organic prof. (Dr. Handy) came in and was talking to our TA who said that I had said he's the worst TA ever, which I did say. So I said "I must correct that. My class TA is the worst TA ever." Since it was his class we talked about it. I showed him about 3 of our quizzes and another TA (Roger Raspberry)who was there looked at them. Roger was like "How long do you have to take this?" "20 minutes" I said. "Do you freak out when you get this?" "Of course." "Do you even know what this does?" "Should I?" And he said "How do you feel about the class?" "Like I'm just failing and I shouldn't even try." And he said "He's just ripped up your self-confidence. You should leave recitation feeling confident you can do that stuff, not like you're worthless." I didn't even know I needed comforting! It made me feel so much better, like seriously. And then he asked how I felt about the test today. I said "Well, I have studied. I've got a 10 page pchem lab report due tomorrow and I'm only on the intro. I can't think about organic till I get that done. I've done the homework and I've made my notes. I just have to do the review and study my notes." He said "Well, it sounds like you're in good shape. Start coming to see Dr. Handy each week." And I will too, dang it. Like, he seriously made my day. Staying up until 1am didn't seem like a big deal.
I'm not an idiot. And I don't have to always compare myself with Robert when it comes to school. Is he better at it than I am? Heck yes he is. But that's ok. I'm proud of him. I don't mind letting him be the smarter one of the pair. He can even be the chemist if he wants.
In my devotion last night I read Psalms 8 and 23. They were so appropriate. When my life is going nuts and I just feel so down on myself, God will take me away from it all. He'll take me to this place in my head where our souls just lay down in a field and listen to each other breathe. I just felt so refreshed. It was a great delight. Thanks God! I mean, I didn't even realize how low my self-esteem had gotten. It's nice to know Someone is watching my back.
Tomorrow I have a marine science test. I still have to read the chapters. And I'm starving. I wanna go home, but I've still got like 2 hours.
Well, I'm off to do...something. I don't know what. But something. Peace out.
So yesterday in lab my organic prof. (Dr. Handy) came in and was talking to our TA who said that I had said he's the worst TA ever, which I did say. So I said "I must correct that. My class TA is the worst TA ever." Since it was his class we talked about it. I showed him about 3 of our quizzes and another TA (Roger Raspberry)who was there looked at them. Roger was like "How long do you have to take this?" "20 minutes" I said. "Do you freak out when you get this?" "Of course." "Do you even know what this does?" "Should I?" And he said "How do you feel about the class?" "Like I'm just failing and I shouldn't even try." And he said "He's just ripped up your self-confidence. You should leave recitation feeling confident you can do that stuff, not like you're worthless." I didn't even know I needed comforting! It made me feel so much better, like seriously. And then he asked how I felt about the test today. I said "Well, I have studied. I've got a 10 page pchem lab report due tomorrow and I'm only on the intro. I can't think about organic till I get that done. I've done the homework and I've made my notes. I just have to do the review and study my notes." He said "Well, it sounds like you're in good shape. Start coming to see Dr. Handy each week." And I will too, dang it. Like, he seriously made my day. Staying up until 1am didn't seem like a big deal.
I'm not an idiot. And I don't have to always compare myself with Robert when it comes to school. Is he better at it than I am? Heck yes he is. But that's ok. I'm proud of him. I don't mind letting him be the smarter one of the pair. He can even be the chemist if he wants.
In my devotion last night I read Psalms 8 and 23. They were so appropriate. When my life is going nuts and I just feel so down on myself, God will take me away from it all. He'll take me to this place in my head where our souls just lay down in a field and listen to each other breathe. I just felt so refreshed. It was a great delight. Thanks God! I mean, I didn't even realize how low my self-esteem had gotten. It's nice to know Someone is watching my back.
Tomorrow I have a marine science test. I still have to read the chapters. And I'm starving. I wanna go home, but I've still got like 2 hours.
Well, I'm off to do...something. I don't know what. But something. Peace out.