I've been able to go without thinking about you, and not giving a shit if we've spoken or not.

And then I start using your old pillow and I start dreaming about you every night.

This shit isn't fair.

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I sent Scott a message last night, asking if Andrew was okay and if he'd heard from him. He said yes.

The good: knowing he's alive and safe and mostly taken care of.

The bad: knowing he's ignoring because he does, indeed, hate me.

The ugly: feeling like its all my fault.

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I hate hate hate reading over how stupid and depressed I was just eight months ago. I recently celebrated my 26th birthday, and if I've learned anything by re-reading my old entries and by thinking about how the last year has gone, it's this: things are always, always changing. Things get better, and then they get worse, and then they get better ( Read more... )

So Andrew and I got approved for an apartment in Lompoc. Our move in date is May 1st, and we plan on spending the night there on that date. Even if we have to sleep on an air mattress and live out of boxes for a while, we are definitely moving in ASAP. Some of my pirate buddies are going to help us move around May 3rd, which is a Friday. We're ( Read more... )

Jesus, it's been a while. Almost a year. Shit.

So. Updates.

Andrew and I have been dating for about a year. A year on the 15th, actually. We fight, probably more than most couples. And when we fight they're pretty gnarly and vicious. But despite everything, we care about each other and we want to be together. And we're both so stubborn that I think ( Read more... )

So I'm visiting Eric for a few weeks, and Los Angeles is freakin' hot. It's not even so much that it's hot, really, but there is absolutely no breeze or anything. I feel like such an idiot for forgetting my bathing suit. Ugh ( Read more... )

The Christmas party / Secret Santa thing is tonight at my grandparent's house. I've made fudge, candy cane clusters, and I'm going to make sugar cookies before everyone gets here. I have a whole shitload of hot chocolate to make, and I still have to help my grandma clean up the house before 6, when everyone's going to start getting here. Stacey's ( Read more... )

HOW THE FUCK AM I "CROSSING THE LINE" WHEN ALL I DID WAS GO TO THE COPS TO GET YOUR FAT ASS OFF MY BACK!?

There's a lot more involved in the above mentioned retardedness, but I don't want to get into it right now. Because I am so pissed.
In happier news: Eric is driving from San Fransisco to Lompoc today (he was actually with his sister yesterday ( Read more... )

  Halloween was pretty sick this year. I covered myself in torn up scrubs and theatrical blood and ran around as a homicidal nurse. I think I looked pretty amazing, but that's just my opinion.

I was supposed to go down to LA to spend Halloween with Erik and Jen, scaring the shit out of children. Eric got sick with swine flu a couple days before I ( Read more... )

Ami had her baby today at 2:13 this afternoon. Her name is Lanor Belle LeSherra and shes 7 pounds, 6 ounces. Jessie sent me a picture and she's absolutely gorgeous. I can't wait until Thanksgiving when I can see her ( Read more... )