Mar 10, 2006 22:36
Dr Wayne W Dyer is my new spiritual advisor, at least for the weekend. I found him via PBS and Barnes and Noble. He's less scary than going to church and less expensive than therapy, and this is the first fabulous inspirational thing that he's said to me that I want to share:
'There's no lack of opportunity to make a living at what you love. There's only a lack of resolve to make it happen.'
I'm all about that right now. I am thinking about getting my associates in dance at Dean College next year. I talked to an advisor there and he thinks that I could do it in a year. I could also teach dance like I do this year and maybe just drive to Dean two, maybe three mornings a week.
Also, I love my piano student Ryan. I love him because he reminds me that having a good ear is an equal part of musicality as literacy. He has learned to read in the time that I've been teaching him piano, he's seven now, and it's done funny things to his development as a music reader. Today, for instance, I sang the word G, because that was the next note he was supposed to play, but I was singing the pitch E. Totally my bad, but it happens. Don't tell Dr Karpinski. He played an E, because that's what he heard, and to him, the letter name is beside the point. It's frustrating to me sometimes because reading music is second nature to me, and I don't approach learning a piece at all the way that he does. But it's a challenge, and I appreciate it. He's soooo good at figuring songs out after hearing them once that it makes me feel like I absolutely must go to his house every Friday afternoon for thirteen dollars to just make sure he keeps playing for as long as possible.
I'm dancing my solo tomorrow at the Tyngsboro Library, which I didn't know existed until one of my teachers asked me to do the gig. Think of how many towns have libraries that I haven't danced in yet! Sometimes I think about how if a professional orchestra or dance company had an opening and for some reason wanted me, I don't think I'd want to do it. It's pretty fulfilling being someone who performs, teaches and learns the arts and never has to leave New England. I've known a couple of people who have worked crappy jobs while auditioning for their big breaks, and I just can't get on board with that mindset. It's fine to have goals and dreams, but I can't imagine not making a contribution in the meantime. Maybe that's self-serving of me, because the number one reason I keep making contributions is that I have a need to express myself, big time, on a daily basis. It's not really about other people. But still, I can't imagine waking up to a job every day that I didn't like, hoping that one I liked would come along. That's very life is a dress rehearsal. I love everything right now!