hmmmm
Yeah I haven't updated in awhile. When I just logged in, everything was different. I'm not a big fan of change, usually. So we'll see how that goes.
I've got a lot of thoughts going on this week that I think will turn into larger ideas and concepts soon. I'm definitely in the pre-articulation phase, maybe because I haven't been writing or even having long enough conversations with people to work things through. But I've been dealing with a lot of input lately, experiences with people and conversations with them and reading new things, etc, and I feel kind of restless, like now it's time to pan it all out and form a conclusion or two. Little questions like should there be kids at my wedding to make my mother happy are going to lead to bigger issues like is it alright to let our traditions hold us back and refrain from expressing yourself so that you can willingly be a representative of the greater family desires at events like weddings.
Now that I'm thinking about that, here's another question....is it alright that I am a completely useless silent member on the board of the Chelmsford Community Band? And that I have no intentions of giving up my seat to someone who might do good for the organization, although I only intend to make a minimal contribution? That's not like me, but these people really seem to have it together, and love being dramatic with each other, and don't need my participation at all. In fact, since I was pretty much drafted into the position, confessing up front that I can't make most of the meetings, I'd say that they have me here to prevent a more dramatic contributor from having my position. So maybe I'm doing them a favor? It's hard to see it that way.
Okay, I'm going to bed, we'll see what else pans out.
oh, read this. I met this guy. He's kind of interesting. www.demonbaby.com
I've got a lot of thoughts going on this week that I think will turn into larger ideas and concepts soon. I'm definitely in the pre-articulation phase, maybe because I haven't been writing or even having long enough conversations with people to work things through. But I've been dealing with a lot of input lately, experiences with people and conversations with them and reading new things, etc, and I feel kind of restless, like now it's time to pan it all out and form a conclusion or two. Little questions like should there be kids at my wedding to make my mother happy are going to lead to bigger issues like is it alright to let our traditions hold us back and refrain from expressing yourself so that you can willingly be a representative of the greater family desires at events like weddings.
Now that I'm thinking about that, here's another question....is it alright that I am a completely useless silent member on the board of the Chelmsford Community Band? And that I have no intentions of giving up my seat to someone who might do good for the organization, although I only intend to make a minimal contribution? That's not like me, but these people really seem to have it together, and love being dramatic with each other, and don't need my participation at all. In fact, since I was pretty much drafted into the position, confessing up front that I can't make most of the meetings, I'd say that they have me here to prevent a more dramatic contributor from having my position. So maybe I'm doing them a favor? It's hard to see it that way.
Okay, I'm going to bed, we'll see what else pans out.
oh, read this. I met this guy. He's kind of interesting. www.demonbaby.com