Issues resurfacing

[chelle_my_belle]

When I clean my house, I think. Sometimes during this time I come up with wonderful solutions to problems that seem unsolvable and other times I dwell on things that I can't change. This morning I became re-pissed over some things. I find it so frustrating that my family really isn't interested in my wedding. The planning, the ceremony, the

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[chaos_confusion]

That sucks that your family isn't being very supportive. Ya know, I've heard a lot of people say how frustrating and emotional planning a wedding is, and I think that's one reason that I haven't done it yet. I'm scared of the whole process...not actually being married, but the event itself. The whole thing seems exciting, but very intimidating. J.R. and I have actually talked about saving to go on a vacation and just getting married while we're gone. Haha, I don't know how that would go down with the families, but it's our decision, right?

What does your dress look like? Are there pictures online? I never found out which bridesmaid dresses you decided on either. What's your reception going to be like?

[chelle_my_belle]

well my dress is very plain yet elegant. Its sleeveless with a tank top cut top and that part is silky. Then it has a dropped waist which is a little lower than my natural waist and the skirt is like tulle material I think. Then it has a silky sash that runs along the edge of the bottom. If you can't figure out what that looks like I'll definitely get some pictures to you one way or another after the wedding. The bridesmaids dresses are spaghetty strapped and t length. They are a light silvery blue and they are cute!! We are going to have an awesome reception with a buffet full of food, a DJ and dancing. I can't wait until the reception. Also Kristian is planning my bridal shower and bachelorette party. Talking about it gets me all excited. And you are definitely on my friends list! Remember Melissa?? She has her journal on here also. You should read it sometime b/c its pretty entertaining.

[chaos_confusion]

The dresses sound really nice, but I'd love to see pictures. We got our invitation, but I'm not sure if we'll be able to come. We're more than broke at the moment. I'd really LOVE to, but I'm not sure it'll be possible, which really sucks. No matter what though, I have to see pictures. I'm so excited for you

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[chaos_confusion]

sorry, that turned out longer than expected, lol.

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[chelle_my_belle]

Thats quite alright that it was long, I enjoyed reading it! You just brought back soooooo many memories!! I definitely remember everything you were talking about. That shit cracks me up! Those were the days! I didn't like school but oh my gosh I would love to go back!! I miss having friends and a life! Oh yeah, and not having responsibilities. I totally forgot all about all of us going to see Smashing Pumpkins and Garbage. I miss those times so much its crazy. Thanks for reminding me of the really good times! Oh yeah, I found pictures of us, too!! Hee hee!

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[chaos_confusion]

I have this picture framed of - i think it was my birthday party - as soon as I moved out into that first apartment with J.R. In the picture is you, Melissa, Tara, Ryan, Leesa, and Nathan. Such good times!

Do you know what's going on with Leesa or Ryan now? What about Zarah?

I found this big folder that's full of notes that you wrote me in h.s. (i'm such a packrat) I'm gonna read some of them and remind you of some more stuff.

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[chelle_my_belle]

I don't know what happened to Leesa or Zarah but Lennon still talks to Ryan I think. Last I heard he was living in CA with his boyfriend. I think that was the story anyways. Oh and I had all my notes from as far back as middle school up until a few months ago. I thought to myself "what the hell do I need this stuff for?" so I threw it all away except all my pictures and other special things. I do still have a card you got me for my birthday. Aww how sweet is that?? I totally forgot about that birthday party!! Is there any way you can email me the picture?? I want to see it soo bad! Was it a house warming party??

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[chaos_confusion]

I saw that Ryan was thanked in the booklet for Career Suicide. Do you have that cd? I love it so much!

I think it was probably a house warming/birthday party since I moved out as soon as I turned 18. I think I can probably scan the picture the next time we go to J.R.'s mom's house. I don't know when that'll be, but it shouldn't be too long.