so, kinda a repeat from myspace. but longer. oh well
saw this and went looking for it on my own.
it's remarkable how and what you start to feel about things..
i expect it's going to be physically painful to leave this place.
the shorter one (first one) is a series of beautiful pictures set to pretty music. the longer one (2nd one) actually has people talking to the crew...
this one was from a Catalina trip i wasn't on (i think. although we did see a blue whale). but i have the footage of the dolphins!
and this was from my Californian trip to Catalina!!
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my job is the best i can imagine. i know i say that, i know it has less of an impact on others than what i feel. i absolutely love the ships and the people at the museum. the job is fun, i learn a lot... i don't know. the people make it one of the best places on earth that i could imagine, honestly and truely.
so it's weird i suppose. i admire all those people in the interview movie thing. i wish i could work and feel at home with the ships as they. i know it's as simple as just coming down to volunteer and crew whenever possible. it just doesn't seem.. it seems intimidating. and for some reason, although i love and admire all i've met at the museum, and some i don't know well or hardly at all.. it seems like i don't quite fit in. that sounds silly... but it doesn't seem like it would work... i want to be more involved and a better part of the crew. Connie and Fiona are my heroes. i don't know why i can't just... blah.
and i will miss it with all my heart. so why do i feel like there is a barrier between me feeling like its home? it feels like it should.
maybe it's like how the holidays feel and seem like they should be happy and relaxing and fun filled and good.
i don't know what i'm missing.
XD
nothing so dramatic as being the matchstick girl, but i've got that 'watching-from-the-outside-of-the-window' feeling
anyways
*love*