Sanity, she is a homewrecker
You probably already know this if you're reading this since it's really my main issue that effects everything else in my life, but pretty much since I moved here to Memphis I've felt something about my personality, my core even, has been completely detached.
At one time I thought I had life completely figured out. Not in a cocky sense, just like I understood it--every aspect of it. Now it's like any good time I have, or any bad thing that happens to me for that matter, is all just cursory. It's like being a big, empty shell with all these little events barely tapping on the outside. They make me happy, but it's a faux happiness. They make me sad, but it's like a bullshit sad, too. There's no passion.. for anything.
Maybe 3 times since I've felt this way, something has come along and made me think "This is it! I care about something, I really feel something!".
Have you ever wanted something, or thought you wanted something, that just wasn't for you? Not wanting it because it's not for you, like a forbidden desire or something... just something that you know wasn't and shouldn't be yours. It doesn't make you want it any less, does it.
Roses are thorny. Yes, I have a knack for stating the obvious. The question is though, are they worth the trouble? There are all kinds of other great flowers out there that you can snatch up and smell without any consequence whatsoever. They're not roses though. They don't smell as sweet, they don't mean the same things, they aren't as special. Still... pain for pleasure, or nothing for slightly less pleasure? Whatever the answer, I'm eternally grateful to be a part of life. I promise.
I have no idea what I'm doing.
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Pre-Hyptnotized Peter
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At one time I thought I had life completely figured out. Not in a cocky sense, just like I understood it--every aspect of it. Now it's like any good time I have, or any bad thing that happens to me for that matter, is all just cursory. It's like being a big, empty shell with all these little events barely tapping on the outside. They make me happy, but it's a faux happiness. They make me sad, but it's like a bullshit sad, too. There's no passion.. for anything.
Maybe 3 times since I've felt this way, something has come along and made me think "This is it! I care about something, I really feel something!".
Have you ever wanted something, or thought you wanted something, that just wasn't for you? Not wanting it because it's not for you, like a forbidden desire or something... just something that you know wasn't and shouldn't be yours. It doesn't make you want it any less, does it.
Roses are thorny. Yes, I have a knack for stating the obvious. The question is though, are they worth the trouble? There are all kinds of other great flowers out there that you can snatch up and smell without any consequence whatsoever. They're not roses though. They don't smell as sweet, they don't mean the same things, they aren't as special. Still... pain for pleasure, or nothing for slightly less pleasure? Whatever the answer, I'm eternally grateful to be a part of life. I promise.
I have no idea what I'm doing.
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footsie - you like to goof around and laugh with
the people you care about.
What Sign of Affection Are You?
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Pre-Hyptnotized Peter
What Office Space character are you?
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