So I won...
yes that's right. He broke up with me, which is excitigin considering that's all I've been waiting for for like the last week and a half...I knew it was coming but I'm still considerably upset about it. *ohsigh* So this is basically how things went last night...
Me: I just have one question...Are we still together? (mind you I was very calm)
Scott: I don't know
Me: Well can you make a desicion?
Scott: You want like a yes or a no?
Me: basically...
Scott: No.
And that was it. It was done...I guess I didn't do anything wrong. He at present just doesn't have time for me and he says he still cares btu the whole convo was pretty sketchy...
I know him and I've learned to be able to tell whats going on with him...from the slightest indicators...however ghey that sounds. He's four hundred dollars in debt and working his ass off...anyone can get that. However, he's been doing more drugs...if he was being truthful with me when we were together about what he was using. I guess i don't understand how that makes any sense...If you're already in debt why in the world would you want to be wasting your money on drugs...and it worries me because I love him and I don't want him to...I don't want him to screw things up. I wish I could say i was as happy about this break-up as I was expecting to be...but at least its finally done...and he did it. I was right and that makes me happy cause I hate being wrong!
At the very least however I would feel better about things if I knew he was okay. And it sucks for me at present cause I really need him for all this shit I'm going through and I honestly can't say if things will ever be the way they were before...
ok well my emotions are all 'bgsgvkhsfl' < thats bosnian for blah (lol) and if I don't stop I might start to cry...which I don't really need to be doing in the middle of the library.
Me: I just have one question...Are we still together? (mind you I was very calm)
Scott: I don't know
Me: Well can you make a desicion?
Scott: You want like a yes or a no?
Me: basically...
Scott: No.
And that was it. It was done...I guess I didn't do anything wrong. He at present just doesn't have time for me and he says he still cares btu the whole convo was pretty sketchy...
I know him and I've learned to be able to tell whats going on with him...from the slightest indicators...however ghey that sounds. He's four hundred dollars in debt and working his ass off...anyone can get that. However, he's been doing more drugs...if he was being truthful with me when we were together about what he was using. I guess i don't understand how that makes any sense...If you're already in debt why in the world would you want to be wasting your money on drugs...and it worries me because I love him and I don't want him to...I don't want him to screw things up. I wish I could say i was as happy about this break-up as I was expecting to be...but at least its finally done...and he did it. I was right and that makes me happy cause I hate being wrong!
At the very least however I would feel better about things if I knew he was okay. And it sucks for me at present cause I really need him for all this shit I'm going through and I honestly can't say if things will ever be the way they were before...
ok well my emotions are all 'bgsgvkhsfl' < thats bosnian for blah (lol) and if I don't stop I might start to cry...which I don't really need to be doing in the middle of the library.