* listen and dont trip, i think i need a bottle with a genie in it...
whoa i haven't updated in ages huh? well i feel like writing so here goes. brace yourself.
so what have i been up to? geez i dont even know where i left off. a TON has happened these past few months. in a way im not even me anymore. he took part of me and it just tore my heart into a million little pieces. mending my heart has not been easy. and although i hide it pretty well sometimes... deep down i am just so torn. i dont know any other way to put it. my heart is screaming for help and at the same time my mind is just telling me to get over it. i know i dont need him, i know that im okay. i just dont understand. i dont think i ever really got closure. like even still damn idk. i dont talk to john anymore. i thought it would be a lot better (for me at least) if we werent friends. i wanna talk about it but i dont even know where to begin. im okay. he lost, NOT me. whatev.
so yea mine and jess christmas party, new years, meeting new people, texas winning the rose bowl, and geez just the whole winter break was AWESOME. i cant wait to graduate, high school is such a load of crap and im finally realizing it. worst of all im sure im gonna miss that load of crap hahaa. yea meeting new people this break was nice. i probably did a lot of stupid things this break. idk it seems like i try to deal with problems and get over things the wrong way. i dont know, im just REAL confused right now and i really cannt explain it. i felt like this journal entry was gonna be long but hahah i feel like i cant talk to my livejournal anymore. agh this is so wierd. i miss the way things were.
oh yea and gee wizz... favorites and coronets is all in the SAME night wtf. hmm who shall i take?! i dont even wanna think about it man. okay well im gonna go i cant talk about all this bs anymore.
♥ megan renee
so what have i been up to? geez i dont even know where i left off. a TON has happened these past few months. in a way im not even me anymore. he took part of me and it just tore my heart into a million little pieces. mending my heart has not been easy. and although i hide it pretty well sometimes... deep down i am just so torn. i dont know any other way to put it. my heart is screaming for help and at the same time my mind is just telling me to get over it. i know i dont need him, i know that im okay. i just dont understand. i dont think i ever really got closure. like even still damn idk. i dont talk to john anymore. i thought it would be a lot better (for me at least) if we werent friends. i wanna talk about it but i dont even know where to begin. im okay. he lost, NOT me. whatev.
so yea mine and jess christmas party, new years, meeting new people, texas winning the rose bowl, and geez just the whole winter break was AWESOME. i cant wait to graduate, high school is such a load of crap and im finally realizing it. worst of all im sure im gonna miss that load of crap hahaa. yea meeting new people this break was nice. i probably did a lot of stupid things this break. idk it seems like i try to deal with problems and get over things the wrong way. i dont know, im just REAL confused right now and i really cannt explain it. i felt like this journal entry was gonna be long but hahah i feel like i cant talk to my livejournal anymore. agh this is so wierd. i miss the way things were.
oh yea and gee wizz... favorites and coronets is all in the SAME night wtf. hmm who shall i take?! i dont even wanna think about it man. okay well im gonna go i cant talk about all this bs anymore.
♥ megan renee