* sometimes there is only so much we can do...
i know this is long but i need SOMEONE anyone to just listen and help me!
life has been really hard this semester. i say semester because summer was pretty fun and not stressful. and last year was just, shoot it might as well have been life in disney land. this year reality hit me. reality... yea it sure does bite. maybe reality is what we need, maybe thats what marks the end of growing up. last year i thought i knew everything, i thought that no matter what mistakes i made then... my life would go where i wanted it to go no matter what. i was surely wrong. this year is going by so fast, and everyday i encounter more challenges than i have faced my whole life. ive always heard that "senior year is the BEST year of your life" and im sure it is. but i think that im starting to realize its not the best year because of parties, slacking off, and fun.... but its the best year of our lives because we are finding who we truely are. not who we think we are. many of us are exploring things that we hadn't explored ever before. but its hard, it is so hard. i feel like im just hanging on by a thread right now and tonight i realized that that piece of thread is a lot thicker than i ever thought it was. i realized tonight that i am a lot more that i make myself out to be and i can do a lot better than i think i can.
tonight lets just say that i realized i am NOT the one losing... he is. and i could say so much more.. but id rather not get into it right now.
♥ megan
life has been really hard this semester. i say semester because summer was pretty fun and not stressful. and last year was just, shoot it might as well have been life in disney land. this year reality hit me. reality... yea it sure does bite. maybe reality is what we need, maybe thats what marks the end of growing up. last year i thought i knew everything, i thought that no matter what mistakes i made then... my life would go where i wanted it to go no matter what. i was surely wrong. this year is going by so fast, and everyday i encounter more challenges than i have faced my whole life. ive always heard that "senior year is the BEST year of your life" and im sure it is. but i think that im starting to realize its not the best year because of parties, slacking off, and fun.... but its the best year of our lives because we are finding who we truely are. not who we think we are. many of us are exploring things that we hadn't explored ever before. but its hard, it is so hard. i feel like im just hanging on by a thread right now and tonight i realized that that piece of thread is a lot thicker than i ever thought it was. i realized tonight that i am a lot more that i make myself out to be and i can do a lot better than i think i can.
tonight lets just say that i realized i am NOT the one losing... he is. and i could say so much more.. but id rather not get into it right now.
♥ megan