Project Graduation
okay, so third quarter is coming to a screeching halt before I can even begin to think about anything I have to do in order to graduation. So, today I sat down and had a little chit chat with myself about what needs to happen if I plan on graduating with my friends on June 6th 2004! I don't know how it's supposed to happen when I am failing a class that I ABSOLUTELY POSITIVELY NEED in order to graduate. If I am gonig to graduate it is going to take a small miracle on behalf of my grade. Some people think that it is because I don't do the work, but that's not the case...I do the work and I work my ass off in the class, the problem is that WE DO NOTHING in class! Everyone is expecting me to graduate in June, and it's all becoming a little overwhelming for me. Neither one of my brothers graduated so now it seems like all the pressure to graduate has been put on me, and I honestly don't know if I can live up to all these expectations. I am trying to please everyone at the same time and I'M FAILING! I can't please all these people at once! Right now it seems like Kris is the only person who isn't putting any pressure on me to graduate. Don't get me wrong, he wants me to graduate but he's not harping on my every move to make sure that shit gets done. I honestly can't believe that high school is almost over. I always used to say that I would never have to worry about stressing when the fourth quarter of my senior year, but now that it is here I am stressing more than ever! Everything has been working against me this past quarter with all that I've had to deal with...assuming that only my friends are reading this, you all know what I am talking about. Next quarter is going to be different...I am going to work my ass off, even if it means I can't spend as much time with Kris as I would like to, but he knows I love him so there isn't an issue! Not to mention the fact that we'll be living together after I graduate, so there will be plenty of time to see me come summer time. Then there's the fact that I am planning on going back to work at Pizza Hut as a waitress and working full time come April. You are probably thinking I am crazy with all the different things I am attempting to juggle, but it's all because other people come before I do...if you know me at all you know that this is true. I haven't always been like this, but I am now and I guess I always will be. Some people, and you know who you are, think that me putting others before myself is a bad thing but I personally feel that it is a good time. I make time for myself, at night in my bed. It works for me and I don't see a problem with it! Anyways, I guess it's time for me to go to bed. I just want to give a special thanx to my babe for being there to support me and give me a little boost of confidence when I need it the most. I LOVE YOU KRIS! You're always there when I need you and there's nothing more I could ask for. You are the most incredible man I know and I love you with all my heart...I couldn't have asked for a better man to spend the rest of my life with!