wish you were here
i've been in LA for a full two days now, and fuck it all, i don't fit here. i'm not the life style, the look, the attitude, the care, the carelessness, the heat, i'm not anything LA... maybe the great bands that come here. i miss my friends so damn much, sometimes it's hard for me to breath because they're not around. seriously, with out my friends i wouldn't have made it this far in life, with out them being there for me to take care of, to laugh with, to cry with, to make fun of scene people with, to go through high school and making it out alive, to go to concerts, to talk about boys, to talk about girls... to live life with out my friends would be death for me. i want to go back to charlotte and snuggle with each and everyone one of my friends... because we're hot like that and that's how we do it!!!!
in other news... my family has been talking about people getting married and my grandma telling me i need to date boys so they will marry me. but the more i think about it, the more i get scared, the less i want to get married, the more i realize that i'm going to live my life with no man in it. i have come to notice that marriages become a rutine, there's no more excitement and cheesiness, no more teenage lovers pretending to know nothing but love. i don't want to life to get in the way of love. i want to be in a state where everything is about being with another person and appriciating their beauty and character. i don't want issues about money, where we're going to live, what we're going to do with our lives... all that bullshit that makes love fade away. i just want to be a teenage lover for forever, but i can't ask anyone to want the same. most people want a family and kids, a normal life... but i just want the silly romance to last forever. i have so many things wrong with me, but i think that i'm right and that secretly everyone else agrees with me. we all want fake love that doesn't fade away or turns into a rutine life that is boring and unexciting. we all want a frabricate love story from the movies that doesn't exists in real life, yet we are all determined to find the next best thing.... but me... i'm determined to find the real thing.
i love you and miss you and wish i could be there with you right now!
mor
in other news... my family has been talking about people getting married and my grandma telling me i need to date boys so they will marry me. but the more i think about it, the more i get scared, the less i want to get married, the more i realize that i'm going to live my life with no man in it. i have come to notice that marriages become a rutine, there's no more excitement and cheesiness, no more teenage lovers pretending to know nothing but love. i don't want to life to get in the way of love. i want to be in a state where everything is about being with another person and appriciating their beauty and character. i don't want issues about money, where we're going to live, what we're going to do with our lives... all that bullshit that makes love fade away. i just want to be a teenage lover for forever, but i can't ask anyone to want the same. most people want a family and kids, a normal life... but i just want the silly romance to last forever. i have so many things wrong with me, but i think that i'm right and that secretly everyone else agrees with me. we all want fake love that doesn't fade away or turns into a rutine life that is boring and unexciting. we all want a frabricate love story from the movies that doesn't exists in real life, yet we are all determined to find the next best thing.... but me... i'm determined to find the real thing.
i love you and miss you and wish i could be there with you right now!
mor