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This is the first Valentines day I have been alone in 5 years... fucking sucks... fuck love... fuck all you happy people holding hands and buying gifts for eachother and kissing all night just because you can cause its Valentines day... had plans with Amanda tonight for my friends to tkae us out to dinner and she decided to hoe me out and not tell me until today and go visit her ex boyfriend cause i keep forgetting how cool that is... her excuse is "i thought you would be with nate." cause yea i talk to him so much... havent heard from him since his voice mais yelling at me... every doubt that i had in my mind that maybe he was telling the truth is slowly disappearing every day i dont hear from him, if it wasnt true you would think he would be trying to defend himself, but i guess not... i refuse to be alone tonight, ill find something to do besides sit in my room and cry and be depressed... blah