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i'm pretty mad at mysefl right now. i have completely thown my weekend down the drain. i've wasted more time than a little and i will be suffering the consequences of my own stupidity throughout this busy week and beyond.
i mean i did NOTHING. nothing good at least. i wreaked havoc on my body and my apartment. they're trashed. i haven't been eating like my normal self. i'm always the "health nut" in my circle of friends, mainly cuza my predispotition to health problems in the past. i ate out almost every day last week and though it wasn't ALL bad, that is NOT like me. at all. and the ALCOHOL! oh the alcohol. i could have killed myself last night. i'm glad i passed out instead.
my house is in shambles. not to mention my room which has always been my pride and joy, it stays locked cuz i'm so ashamed of how filthy it is. i been meaning to clean it up for weeks!!!
i have a test i haven't studied for on tuesday. i have work in the morning. i need clean laundry.
i don't understand why i'm sabatoging myself. i can't blame anyone but me right now. i am going in the WRONG direction.
i mean i did NOTHING. nothing good at least. i wreaked havoc on my body and my apartment. they're trashed. i haven't been eating like my normal self. i'm always the "health nut" in my circle of friends, mainly cuza my predispotition to health problems in the past. i ate out almost every day last week and though it wasn't ALL bad, that is NOT like me. at all. and the ALCOHOL! oh the alcohol. i could have killed myself last night. i'm glad i passed out instead.
my house is in shambles. not to mention my room which has always been my pride and joy, it stays locked cuz i'm so ashamed of how filthy it is. i been meaning to clean it up for weeks!!!
i have a test i haven't studied for on tuesday. i have work in the morning. i need clean laundry.
i don't understand why i'm sabatoging myself. i can't blame anyone but me right now. i am going in the WRONG direction.