You may say I'm a dreamer
I've been alternating between thinking that this year will be the best, most challenging, and most rewarding year of my life thus far and just freaking out about everything I have planned this year. When I start freaking out, it also means that I'm not being productive with my summer assignments, which only leads to me freaking out more. I still have six days until I start school, but it's only six days. Even this post is a form of procrastination so I don't have to deal with my work. So was following the Belgium vs. Germany Euro 2012 qualifiers.
I probably would be freaking out less if I had less planned, but if I had less planned, I just have this feeling that it'd be less likely for me to achieve what I want and be where I want in life. It doesn't help that I have so many friends who have been talking solely about school for weeks now. I don't remember the last time I spoke with my friends about something that wasn't 1. schoolwork or 2. something we hate. There's no positivity floating anymore. It doesn't help that my school is pretty competitive just because we have so much parental pressure on us. Oh Asian families. :C I am honestly more freaked out about getting through high school and getting into college than I am about what I'll do when I actually get into college.
Here's a list of what I'll (hopefully) be doing this year, because I always write lists when I'm freaked:
AP Biology
AP Language and Composition
Spanish 3P
AP Calculus AB
AP US History
Physics P
Anatomy/Physiology
Track
Key Club
Debate
Mock Trial
GSA (Vice-President Volunteer Manager)
USABO
Orange County Academic Decathlon
AP Psychology
CSF
NHS
SAT/ACT
Read regularly
Write regularly
Audio Hostem
Exercise regularly starting in the winter
Be less scared
In slightly more accomplished news, I haven't bitten my nails in four days. C: This is a new record for me, and I think I just might be able to kick the habit this time. Fingers crossed!
eta: Forgot to mention this. I went ahead and made a writing journal. There's not much in it yet, and I think the best part of it so far is the quote of John K. Samson in the profile, but it's there. recreateagain
I probably would be freaking out less if I had less planned, but if I had less planned, I just have this feeling that it'd be less likely for me to achieve what I want and be where I want in life. It doesn't help that I have so many friends who have been talking solely about school for weeks now. I don't remember the last time I spoke with my friends about something that wasn't 1. schoolwork or 2. something we hate. There's no positivity floating anymore. It doesn't help that my school is pretty competitive just because we have so much parental pressure on us. Oh Asian families. :C I am honestly more freaked out about getting through high school and getting into college than I am about what I'll do when I actually get into college.
Here's a list of what I'll (hopefully) be doing this year, because I always write lists when I'm freaked:
AP Biology
AP Language and Composition
Spanish 3P
AP Calculus AB
AP US History
Physics P
Anatomy/Physiology
Track
Key Club
Debate
Mock Trial
GSA (Vice-President Volunteer Manager)
USABO
Orange County Academic Decathlon
AP Psychology
CSF
NHS
SAT/ACT
Read regularly
Write regularly
Audio Hostem
Exercise regularly starting in the winter
Be less scared
In slightly more accomplished news, I haven't bitten my nails in four days. C: This is a new record for me, and I think I just might be able to kick the habit this time. Fingers crossed!
eta: Forgot to mention this. I went ahead and made a writing journal. There's not much in it yet, and I think the best part of it so far is the quote of John K. Samson in the profile, but it's there. recreateagain