it wont let things get better...
things can get better, but if they go and chase someone once you upset them,then what the fuck is the point? i decied to stop being that immature when i decied i wanted a change and i wanted things to work. honestly im tired, im sick, i hurt, this is nothing but painful, i have no idea what to do, i have been in tears since that aweful day, there is no trust just ignorace. i hate myself, i hate my friends and family, i hate him. yet i love them all. they have all upset me and dissapointed me in the same amount of ways in the same ways, everyway possble just like how i have upset and dissapointed all of them, then why is one worse than the other? people who say they believe in 2nd chances are selfish, they believe in 2nd chances for themseleves when they fuck up, but for no one else, if someone fucks them over then there is no such thing as a 2nd chance, selfish bastards. i dont think there is such thing as a 2nd chance, i believe its all gone to shit, once you get your second chance its just the past that is used against you, what is the point of the 2nd chance? ive lost all hope, i guess theres nothing to do but start moving up, so here i go.