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September 25 - Piano teacher came today. After that, everybody went to this Chinese restaurant in Chamblee. After THAT, I chilled at home for awhile, and then at 4:30 me and Unni went and picked up Kiyana and came back to campus. I left my phone downstairs when we arrived, and when I came back downstairs 2 hours later, saw I got a phone call from Billy () and a text from Martell (). He said that he spent Friday night with Lil Wayne and Birdman ... Kiyana said it was because he was trying to cover his tracks because he knew that Bora told me that she saw him at the football game. I texted him back saying how I heard he was at the football game but said that was cool and if they were nice and if he had fun. No reply... as usual... I am so frustrated with him because he keeps acting like a damn fool. Kiyana gave me really good advice and it all makes sense. She told me that I can't be friends with him, and that makes me sad because I want to know how he's doing, that he's taking care of himself, that he's happy etc. She says we can only kinda-sorta have a "friendship" if he gets over the guilt of talking to another girl while he was still with me. *sigh* I know Bora, Aaliyah, etc. are going to be like, "Why do you even WANT a friendship after how he acted?!" But ehh... it's just me I guess. Like, I still care for him as a person and just want to know he's doing alright now and then. I just wish he knew that and would be ok with that and stop thinking that I'm so pissed off at him or whatever the hell he's thinking. I think we could have a friendship, I mean, I wasn't in love with him, and our relationship wasn't that long anyway! I just wish Martell would stop trying to play these stupid little games and just be upfront with what he's thinking and what he wants to do about it. STOP BEING A LITTLE BITCH YOU BITCH! Like it's ok to have a normal conversation with me, I promise I won't bite your head off about what you did or didn't do. I just want to be FRIENDS. Why oh why is that so difficult? I so don't get it. Does he not WANT to have a friendship with me? Is that it? Why does he keep texting me if he doesn't even reply when I do? To see if he has me around his finger? For what? To keep me as a backup bitch if this girl now doesn't work out, what???
September 23 - Today I went home. Unni couldn't pick us up this week because Hyungboo went to Korea, so her mom picked us up instead and had to pick us up really late because of her job. That night, Bora called me and told me that she saw Martell at a football game... with a girl. Oddly enough, I was going to go to that football game... if I had gotten home at the time I usually do. But for this week, only this week, it couldn't happen. Hmm... God works in mysterious ways. I think he definately thought I couldn't handle it, no matter how much I told myself I'd be ok. I mean, when Bora told me, I immediately felt sick to my stomach. I called Kiyana up and she made me feel almost immediately better. I wuv me Yana!
September 24 - During the morning I went to Stevi B's pizza with Unni and the kids and after that, Unni dropped me off at the mall where I met up with Bora and her roommate, Dixie. I arrived at around 3:30 and we stayed at the mall until like... midnight. John came at around 6:30, and we went in and watched "The 40-Year-Old-Virgin" which was hilarious. After that, we walked around not knowing what to do, since John was dropped off and we had no transport. So we decided to go into P.E. Chang's and eat while we waited for Mike to come and pick us up. They came at around 11. "They" meaning Mike, Billy (), and one of their boys, Powell. We stayed for about an hour in the parking lot trying to figure out what to do. Because security was trying to rush us out, me and Billy got into Powell's car, and everyone else went into Mike's car. I didn't wanna go home but we couldn't think of anything to do. So after Powell picked up one of his boys and dropped us off at a gas station to meet up with Mike, he drove me home. Billy walked me up to the door, and I went in and then out to get a photo and my mom followed me and saw Billy and had this pissed off look on her face. I was so embarrassed and mad that she acted like that. I called Billy to apologize. Urgh, I wish she'd stop it already!!
September 23 - Today I went home. Unni couldn't pick us up this week because Hyungboo went to Korea, so her mom picked us up instead and had to pick us up really late because of her job. That night, Bora called me and told me that she saw Martell at a football game... with a girl. Oddly enough, I was going to go to that football game... if I had gotten home at the time I usually do. But for this week, only this week, it couldn't happen. Hmm... God works in mysterious ways. I think he definately thought I couldn't handle it, no matter how much I told myself I'd be ok. I mean, when Bora told me, I immediately felt sick to my stomach. I called Kiyana up and she made me feel almost immediately better. I wuv me Yana!
September 24 - During the morning I went to Stevi B's pizza with Unni and the kids and after that, Unni dropped me off at the mall where I met up with Bora and her roommate, Dixie. I arrived at around 3:30 and we stayed at the mall until like... midnight. John came at around 6:30, and we went in and watched "The 40-Year-Old-Virgin" which was hilarious. After that, we walked around not knowing what to do, since John was dropped off and we had no transport. So we decided to go into P.E. Chang's and eat while we waited for Mike to come and pick us up. They came at around 11. "They" meaning Mike, Billy (), and one of their boys, Powell. We stayed for about an hour in the parking lot trying to figure out what to do. Because security was trying to rush us out, me and Billy got into Powell's car, and everyone else went into Mike's car. I didn't wanna go home but we couldn't think of anything to do. So after Powell picked up one of his boys and dropped us off at a gas station to meet up with Mike, he drove me home. Billy walked me up to the door, and I went in and then out to get a photo and my mom followed me and saw Billy and had this pissed off look on her face. I was so embarrassed and mad that she acted like that. I called Billy to apologize. Urgh, I wish she'd stop it already!!