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I had to write this stupid personal narrative for Creative Writing. I think it'll be the hardest assignment I've done all year. I couldn't think of a specific incident that changed me, because I change gradually. Thought a lot about it, maybe telling Rob I'm bi, things like that. Decided to write about Yi-Chen and how our relationship is different than others i've had, how he's changed my approach. Wrote it. It was pretty much shit. I started with all the horrible things i hate about me but that are true and i've gotten better about, but they're bad and i'm a bit ashamed, then it ends really sappy. I hated it. Thought about more topics. Started dragging up old stuff from when I was dating Rob. Read old journal entries. Started crying while I was reading one and Yich held me. and let me cry.
i don't like crying.
and then i talked on the way to his house. explained my emotions, what was going on, how i didnt want to kill our relationship the way i let thigns fall apart with rob. cried some more.
crying sucks. it's embarassing.
and the horrible thing is, i can't cry usually... because when i start crying, it distracts me from whatever's wrong so I FORGET WHY I'M CRYING. yes, that's right. I FORGET why i'm upset, what the emotion is that's tearing at me and forcing the tears from my soul.
i hate my memory.
that's in my narrative.
I had to write this stupid personal narrative for Creative Writing. I think it'll be the hardest assignment I've done all year. I couldn't think of a specific incident that changed me, because I change gradually. Thought a lot about it, maybe telling Rob I'm bi, things like that. Decided to write about Yi-Chen and how our relationship is different than others i've had, how he's changed my approach. Wrote it. It was pretty much shit. I started with all the horrible things i hate about me but that are true and i've gotten better about, but they're bad and i'm a bit ashamed, then it ends really sappy. I hated it. Thought about more topics. Started dragging up old stuff from when I was dating Rob. Read old journal entries. Started crying while I was reading one and Yich held me. and let me cry.
i don't like crying.
and then i talked on the way to his house. explained my emotions, what was going on, how i didnt want to kill our relationship the way i let thigns fall apart with rob. cried some more.
crying sucks. it's embarassing.
and the horrible thing is, i can't cry usually... because when i start crying, it distracts me from whatever's wrong so I FORGET WHY I'M CRYING. yes, that's right. I FORGET why i'm upset, what the emotion is that's tearing at me and forcing the tears from my soul.
i hate my memory.
that's in my narrative.