Sometimes I Hate Being The Victim
La La La...just another day...ahh..lame..lame..lame...indeed..well nikki came by here today she is going to pay me money if i do these little science test thingys for her they are real easy considering i passed with an A all year last year. yepp yepp so its easy money. i think that momm is goin to be pissed cause i kept texting ppl and this morning herman texted while she was using that phone and shes like "what are you doing texting ppl and your not even supposed to be talkin to him" ahh. and i know i shouldnt but i cant help it you know.. you know how ppl get like addicted to drugs lol well thats what my deal is. like seriously but i think that i need to just start not talking to him at all. like cut him off compeletly atleast for awhile cause then i should know if he really cares rite..i guess or unless he talks to christie that would prolly tell me also. but he gets so pissed sometimes when ppl talk to him about me. i dont get it ooh well its not like i force him to call me or whatever he does it on his own free will sooo yeah iono anymore.. welcome to my life... haha rite well hmm what else is there to talk about.. i think i did really well on my psychology test today i remembered most of the shyt sooo yeah good feeling lol but anywho herman is supposed to call to nite cause this morning i told him i wasnt goin to go to skool and hes like NO YOU GO TO SKOOL and i was like nahh theres not a reason too anymore and hes like what was your reason and i was like ahh you will never understand. and then i told him that i would tell him later cause he was like make me understand. and i dunno im tired of telling him my feelings its not getting us anywhere you know its him getting how i feel and me getting nothing back so im just going to tell him that im not going to tell him my feelings anymore cause i dont think that he needs to hear them... cause he has heard them all many times before. but hey thats my opionin but i need to hear those kinda things too sometimes but if he doesnt ever wanna be with me again then he just needs to tell me so i can TOTALLY get over him cause as long as he keeps talking to me then i think i have a chance you know and iono what to doo AHHH!!! well i missed laguna beach last nite so ima about to go watch that cause i love that show its like crazy wow. oooh yeah some kid on a bike hit my mom while she was driving the car lmao but then it dintted the car door and alla this but yeah its insane and tomorrow ima go meet michael clayton YAY! isnt that awesome he plays for the bucs but okay im outtie hoes!