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been fuckin stressed as hell as of late, or forever now. uhm work is a bitch cuz i have a stupid ass lead that doesnt know what the fuck hes talking about..everytime i say something he contradicts it..has a meeting with him boss and i end up being right which could have saved me a ton of time had he listened to me in the first place. Very frustrating. I dont have my own place..nor my own room..i stay in the living room of my coworkers apt, which means..cant sleep when i want gotta deal with cig smoke every damn day, and gotta put up with him at work as well..oh well my own fault. Now Rose..we broke up in..january. Didnt talk to eachother for a few weeks, then she calls me talking about michan and stuff..using him to get to me. After a while i started going over there again on the weekends to hang out and get rest. She started dating her ex who was in japan since valentines day..but i have been sleeping with her every weekend till..last weekend. She tells me that i make her feel worse than her drunk father..but if that was true..why do i fuckin push her to go to school and shit instead of playing lineage 2 all damn day..why did i do the shit for her that i did for her if i just wanted to put her down? I compare myself to her ex cuz she always talks about how hes there for her emotionally and im not..i told her..its cuz you dont want me to be, you want me to be him. Anyways..in the end i end up hanging up on her and im pretty much cutting my ties with her. i need to get over this chick so yeah...im fucking through..just need something good to fuckin happen in my life