Just have to get something off my Chest
I've been resting in my bed today tell this time...(Well I really got out at 2:10) I have just been having something on my mind. Someone I know that is out of this world. I know she doesn't know I think that about her. But everytime just being able to do one thing to help her in her life gives me that feeling I've been longing for.. I haven't been with a girl in sometime. But there is some reasoning for that.. I haven't been witness to anything from a girl that I have been wanting in my life. For example a girl I know that said she liked me. One day said Why don't you like me.. It wasn't that I didnt like her. It was more along the lines as I just got to get to know her a couple weeks ago. Also I can't always trust girls..And by that is I know they are always changing things about their life and It could have been well I thought you are cool Chase but now I just think we should be friend..Though we did hangout alot.. And she just was all together really needy.. And I couldn't deal with that if she wanted me to make choices on the spot about something that can be very serious (like a relationship that is) I can ramble off with all these events I've been having for the past several months. But in the bottom line it just seems like geez Chase why are you so emo.. It has nothing to do with Emo its about caring so much about the other person and then getting hurt.. Love is something special but at times is taken out of contence and really is just being abused from what really can show someone you think way differently about them then the ordinary guy or girl that you have been hanging out with.. If you have ever loved someone one you will know what I mean.. So all in all I just want to prove that I can be there.. And I will not be that asshole that will one day be in your life and then the next thinking screw this I rather be doing something else.. I don't want to be that sterotypical guy that goes for just sex and want to just end with that. There isn't anything wrong with sex. I just feel if you didnt go into it for the reason of love then you really arent having the passion in volved with it..I know that was getting off the subject.. But today I just have been thinking how great it could be getting to know someone that is very funny,gorgious, very bright.. And someone that doesn't make me feel over stressed and doesnt knock me for not saying everything right the first time.. So yes this isnt anything to stur things up and make conflects just I really really have it on my mind so I wanted to let it be said.. I've been resting in my bed today tell this time...(Well I really got out at 2:10) I have just been having something on my mind. Someone I know that is out of this world. I know she doesn't know I think that about her. But everytime just being able to do one thing to help her in her life gives me that feeling I've been longing for.. I haven't been with a girl in sometime. But there is some reasoning for that.. I haven't been witness to anything from a girl that I have been wanting in my life. For example a girl I know that said she liked me. One day said Why don't you like me.. It wasn't that I didnt like her. It was more along the lines as I just got to get to know her a couple weeks ago. Also I can't always trust girls..And by that is I know they are always changing things about their life and It could have been well I thought you are cool Chase but now I just think we should be friend..Though we did hangout alot.. And she just was all together really needy.. And I couldn't deal with that if she wanted me to make choices on the spot about something that can be very serious (like a relationship that is) I can ramble off with all these events I've been having for the past several months. But in the bottom line it just seems like geez Chase why are you so emo.. It has nothing to do with Emo its about caring so much about the other person and then getting hurt.. Love is something special but at times is taken out of contence and really is just being abused from what really can show someone you think way differently about them then the ordinary guy or girl that you have been hanging out with.. If you have ever loved someone one you will know what I mean.. So all in all I just want to prove that I can be there.. And I will not be that asshole that will one day be in your life and then the next thinking screw this I rather be doing something else.. I don't want to be that sterotypical guy that goes for just sex and want to just end with that. There isn't anything wrong with sex. I just feel if you didnt go into it for the reason of love then you really arent having the passion in volved with it..I know that was getting off the subject.. But today I just have been thinking how great it could be getting to know someone that is very funny,gorgious, very bright.. And someone that doesn't make me feel over stressed and doesnt knock me for not saying everything right the first time.. So yes this isnt anything to stur things up and make conflects just I really really have it on my mind so I wanted to let it be said..