and it came to me then that every plan was a tiny prayer to father time...
so i got into royal holloway which is very exciting! but now its on to paying for things which is a Huge pain and very stressful for me... its crazy i don't know why i always struggle with this... its like no matter how many times God provides for me in MIRACULOUS ways i always fear not being provided for... gosh i must be so dense, i still struggle with it, and yet he loves me anyway....and it is that i must always remember when i get frusterated with myself. Thanks God.
Also I've just been realizing recently how I have been growing apart from friends back home...some of them are lifelong, but it just isn't as easy to just call them up or hangout... the atlantic is in the way. which is fine, and in some ways i knew this would happen,but it still sucks too. and i havent made the close friends i had in maryland,i'm pretty close to that place with a couple people, which again is fine because that just takes time especially with the untrusting english (again thats fine) but its just a bit hard and a bit lonely sometimes...sometimes i wonder if i'll ever find friends as crazy as i am, if not thats ok, i'm all about accepting each other for who you are, but sometimes its just nice to have someone to not have to think with, someone who will just be with you while you clean your room or do your laundry, i know i'll have friends like that again soon, but it just sucks waiting.
i realize that last paragraph sounds soul-suckingly emo and depressing, it s not meant to be. its just a phase that i'm in at the moment.
Also I've just been realizing recently how I have been growing apart from friends back home...some of them are lifelong, but it just isn't as easy to just call them up or hangout... the atlantic is in the way. which is fine, and in some ways i knew this would happen,but it still sucks too. and i havent made the close friends i had in maryland,i'm pretty close to that place with a couple people, which again is fine because that just takes time especially with the untrusting english (again thats fine) but its just a bit hard and a bit lonely sometimes...sometimes i wonder if i'll ever find friends as crazy as i am, if not thats ok, i'm all about accepting each other for who you are, but sometimes its just nice to have someone to not have to think with, someone who will just be with you while you clean your room or do your laundry, i know i'll have friends like that again soon, but it just sucks waiting.
i realize that last paragraph sounds soul-suckingly emo and depressing, it s not meant to be. its just a phase that i'm in at the moment.