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I have not been on livejournal in months. For the last hour, I've been reading my friends page trying to catch up on everyone's lives, only to discover most of my friends have deleted me.
As for me, well life is pretty good. There has been some bad. I lost another very close uncle in October suddenly from a massive heart attack. He has done a lot for me. He lifted my mother's spirits everytime he would visit. He has fixed countless things in our house, rewired the entire place, and has supported us emotionally. When my dad died, he was the first one to find out and break the news to us. When Leo was born, he bought us a recliner so we could rock him. When my mom died, he was the first one here and he made sure I left the house and he stayed and took care of everything while they took her out. He was there every step of the way planning her funeral and taking care of the loose ends associated with her death. He paid for her funeral when there was no way I could do it and she had no life insurance. He tore down my front steps because they were crumbling and replaced them with a beautiful wooden deck. He had big plans for my non-functional downstairs bathroom and he was going to redo the whole thing for me. He co-signed on a car for my fuck off ex when we needed a new one, then took the hit when he became delinquent and had it repossessed after we split. I can go on and on about the things he's done for us. If there was a problem, he solved it quietly. When he died, it left another big hole in my heart.
2009 has been pretty crazy like the past five. My mom died December 11 2008. My uncle who was like a second father to me lost his battle with cancer in February. I got engaged in May. & when I thought things finally had to look up, a second uncle died in October. I just can't seem to catch a break. I look at my Leo, who turns three on January 23, and I know he's counting on me to move forward.
I really feel good about 2010. As far as I'm concerned, as long as we all make it through alive and healthy, it will be a GREAT year. I think I'm finally emerging from the hard times and there is only good to come. My baby's turning 3 January 23, I'm getting married on June 18, maybe I'll even get pregnant by the end of the year, my house is coming together (although there is still a sickening amount of work to be done), and financially we are more stable than I've been in years and even my entire life.
I was able to give Leo a nice Christmas for the first time. He was a lot of fun this year since he's getting to the age where he really 'gets' and enjoys holidays. Christmas morning was rushed and he went over to his dad's right after opening presents. It was hard when he first left, and I was pretty bummed about it, but the day went by pretty fast.
We've been extremely busy lately. Last weekend was wonderful because we really didn't do much of anything, and this weekend is looking the same. I literally did nothing today other than taking care of Leo. I even slept in until 10AM (didn't have Leo until about noon) and took a long nap in the afternoon. No cleaning and minimal cooking. I really ought of taken the Christmas stuff down, but I didn't get around to it. I feel slightly guilty for wasting 24 hours of my life, but then again it feels good!
Oh! I almost forgot we are just about done with diapers. Leo is doing great everywhere but daycare. He refuses to use the potty there for some reason and just wets his pants instead. It's a big hurdle to get through and I'm not sure what to do. Otherwise he is doing fantastic. He wears big boy undies except to bed, and he usually wakes up dry. VERY exciting :)
As for me, well life is pretty good. There has been some bad. I lost another very close uncle in October suddenly from a massive heart attack. He has done a lot for me. He lifted my mother's spirits everytime he would visit. He has fixed countless things in our house, rewired the entire place, and has supported us emotionally. When my dad died, he was the first one to find out and break the news to us. When Leo was born, he bought us a recliner so we could rock him. When my mom died, he was the first one here and he made sure I left the house and he stayed and took care of everything while they took her out. He was there every step of the way planning her funeral and taking care of the loose ends associated with her death. He paid for her funeral when there was no way I could do it and she had no life insurance. He tore down my front steps because they were crumbling and replaced them with a beautiful wooden deck. He had big plans for my non-functional downstairs bathroom and he was going to redo the whole thing for me. He co-signed on a car for my fuck off ex when we needed a new one, then took the hit when he became delinquent and had it repossessed after we split. I can go on and on about the things he's done for us. If there was a problem, he solved it quietly. When he died, it left another big hole in my heart.
2009 has been pretty crazy like the past five. My mom died December 11 2008. My uncle who was like a second father to me lost his battle with cancer in February. I got engaged in May. & when I thought things finally had to look up, a second uncle died in October. I just can't seem to catch a break. I look at my Leo, who turns three on January 23, and I know he's counting on me to move forward.
I really feel good about 2010. As far as I'm concerned, as long as we all make it through alive and healthy, it will be a GREAT year. I think I'm finally emerging from the hard times and there is only good to come. My baby's turning 3 January 23, I'm getting married on June 18, maybe I'll even get pregnant by the end of the year, my house is coming together (although there is still a sickening amount of work to be done), and financially we are more stable than I've been in years and even my entire life.
I was able to give Leo a nice Christmas for the first time. He was a lot of fun this year since he's getting to the age where he really 'gets' and enjoys holidays. Christmas morning was rushed and he went over to his dad's right after opening presents. It was hard when he first left, and I was pretty bummed about it, but the day went by pretty fast.
We've been extremely busy lately. Last weekend was wonderful because we really didn't do much of anything, and this weekend is looking the same. I literally did nothing today other than taking care of Leo. I even slept in until 10AM (didn't have Leo until about noon) and took a long nap in the afternoon. No cleaning and minimal cooking. I really ought of taken the Christmas stuff down, but I didn't get around to it. I feel slightly guilty for wasting 24 hours of my life, but then again it feels good!
Oh! I almost forgot we are just about done with diapers. Leo is doing great everywhere but daycare. He refuses to use the potty there for some reason and just wets his pants instead. It's a big hurdle to get through and I'm not sure what to do. Otherwise he is doing fantastic. He wears big boy undies except to bed, and he usually wakes up dry. VERY exciting :)